Maybe I"m jsut confusing myself...
I'm tired of not having fun anymore. I'm tried of being the good girlfriend and not doing anything that may upset Bryan. I don't go out on nights when he'll be home early because I want to work on spending time together. Fun time. Not just time where he sits on the computer and I watch tv and we sit like that for four hours.
So tonight I suggested us going out more and we fought about it. WHAT THE FUCK!!! I suggested that lately he has seemed to be more excited about going out without me then spending time with me. I said just to see if there was something wrong that I was doing that bored him. What did he do. Go on a debate on how many times he gets out of the house and how we spend so much time together that it should matter. Or that's what I got out of it at least.
So what do I do? Stay at home for him so I can watch him sit at the computer for four hours while I watch TV? Go out and dance and drink which upsets him? Ignore the fact that whenever we go out it's to the same place doing the same things? IS this a rut? Because I don't see anything changing even when he turns 21. It seems like he just wants to go out with other people.
This whole night has made me feel like shit. I don't know what going to happen in the next few months and to be quite frank maybe I should just let is happen. I don't understand why a few changes could make him react the way he did. I don't get it.
So tonight I suggested us going out more and we fought about it. WHAT THE FUCK!!! I suggested that lately he has seemed to be more excited about going out without me then spending time with me. I said just to see if there was something wrong that I was doing that bored him. What did he do. Go on a debate on how many times he gets out of the house and how we spend so much time together that it should matter. Or that's what I got out of it at least.
So what do I do? Stay at home for him so I can watch him sit at the computer for four hours while I watch TV? Go out and dance and drink which upsets him? Ignore the fact that whenever we go out it's to the same place doing the same things? IS this a rut? Because I don't see anything changing even when he turns 21. It seems like he just wants to go out with other people.
This whole night has made me feel like shit. I don't know what going to happen in the next few months and to be quite frank maybe I should just let is happen. I don't understand why a few changes could make him react the way he did. I don't get it.