REALIZATIONS AND QUESTIONS
Why is it that after u gain something, u fail 2 appreciate it? Why cant it be like b4??
He said...."we both madd stubborn, both have very high standards and goals, we've both been thru madd sh*t in our lives, we both think too much, and we both see the world from a whole different perspective than most others. Because we are so alike we bump heads a lot" But right now it's more than jus bumpin heads it's a whole lot more....too much...
He used to be one of the very few who I thought understood me, but now I gotta think twice about that assumption. He used to be the one I could go to, but now It's whateva.....when I need 2 talk about things that are going on in my mind, I no longer go 2 him, but I do deal with them by myself. It's all good cuz i can deal by myself and i dont really need him. I guess I need to find another outlet. One who would be able 2 understand all the sh*t that goes thru my head.
I haven't talked to THE MAN aka my father since the beginning of September and I dont give a d*mn anymore. I'm numb 2 the fact that he dont call or wanna c me. It's about time been 2 long that I've worried about whether my father cared. But watch when I graduate from college he gonna be all around claiming me then. Just like my high school graduation, he told all his friends that I was number 1 in my class, Valedictorian, and got madd when I didnt include him in my speech.....
Talked 2 my moms.....still @ my grandmother's. Thas y i hate going back home...to be in that crowded lil house with all them people. I dont have my privacy there. She said she was thinking bout moving in with my stepfather again. I told her straight up that I wont b following her there. I will live with my grandmother if I have to. I do not like him at all esp after all the bs b4. I love my moms
During my lil trip 2 Brooklyn I met this guy named.....well i gotta come up with a nickname 4 my journal..cuz specially when i put someone in here for the first time i dont write their real names cuz of NOSEY PEOPLE (jus playin). He was madd cool....and I was very, very, very attracted 2 him. lol.....im so stupid...but yea he was madd cute. I think I wanna get to know him better and to see what he's really all about. I mean when u first meet somebody they always put their best first, but I wanna know the good and bad....so that's gonna take some time.....
Talked to Pressiana about my sitch w/ MJ. She gave me some advice.....something i needed to hear, but didnt want to acknowledge.
He said...."we both madd stubborn, both have very high standards and goals, we've both been thru madd sh*t in our lives, we both think too much, and we both see the world from a whole different perspective than most others. Because we are so alike we bump heads a lot" But right now it's more than jus bumpin heads it's a whole lot more....too much...
He used to be one of the very few who I thought understood me, but now I gotta think twice about that assumption. He used to be the one I could go to, but now It's whateva.....when I need 2 talk about things that are going on in my mind, I no longer go 2 him, but I do deal with them by myself. It's all good cuz i can deal by myself and i dont really need him. I guess I need to find another outlet. One who would be able 2 understand all the sh*t that goes thru my head.
I haven't talked to THE MAN aka my father since the beginning of September and I dont give a d*mn anymore. I'm numb 2 the fact that he dont call or wanna c me. It's about time been 2 long that I've worried about whether my father cared. But watch when I graduate from college he gonna be all around claiming me then. Just like my high school graduation, he told all his friends that I was number 1 in my class, Valedictorian, and got madd when I didnt include him in my speech.....
Talked 2 my moms.....still @ my grandmother's. Thas y i hate going back home...to be in that crowded lil house with all them people. I dont have my privacy there. She said she was thinking bout moving in with my stepfather again. I told her straight up that I wont b following her there. I will live with my grandmother if I have to. I do not like him at all esp after all the bs b4. I love my moms
During my lil trip 2 Brooklyn I met this guy named.....well i gotta come up with a nickname 4 my journal..cuz specially when i put someone in here for the first time i dont write their real names cuz of NOSEY PEOPLE (jus playin). He was madd cool....and I was very, very, very attracted 2 him. lol.....im so stupid...but yea he was madd cute. I think I wanna get to know him better and to see what he's really all about. I mean when u first meet somebody they always put their best first, but I wanna know the good and bad....so that's gonna take some time.....
Talked to Pressiana about my sitch w/ MJ. She gave me some advice.....something i needed to hear, but didnt want to acknowledge.