Not really here
have you ever felt like you're not there doing things but you're just awake to get things done? yeah? that's how I feel right now. it's weird. So yeah, I'm not really here posting in my journal.
But a part of me is here and my feelings come with it. I got an email yesterday that I checked last night, and it informed me that the press was going to be at the BSU at 11:30 AM. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to have any part of it. I don't know why the media feels obligated to come and film us. Yes, this girl from my school found over $30,000 working in New Orleans, Louisiana, over spring break. They returned it and everything. Now this girl has 15 minutes of fame and all these news shows are interviewing her and all that.
No, I'm not jealous. I'm disgusted. The campus minister wants all these news things to come. I don't understand why. But I know that I hate the media. and the girl doesn't even want to be interviewed! That disgusts me even more. I'm confused, but disgusted with all this. But I don't understand.
So yeah, I decided to stay away from the school today. No I didn't miss classes. I don't have any classes on Wednesday. I just go to help out with praise and worship services on Wednesdays. I decided to stay away because if I was shown on camera, I don't want that. There was no guarantee that I would be shown on camera but I have a feeling that I would have. The main reason is because I don't support the media being at the Baptist Student Union. I didn't want to have any part of it and all that. Like I said, I hate the media.
It sucks though, because I missed the lunch that they had there. I keep wondering what they had for lunch too. Blah. I hate the way I feel sometimes. But I'm glad that I stayed home and slept all day. I needed it.
I'm stressed out about school and I'm really depressed. I hate my life. I really suck right now. Even I think so. I'm really tired so I'm gonna go back to sleep. And the fact is, is that I feel like no one cares. I know they do and all but I feel like they don't. I feel weird.
I'm not really here. But the Green Day song has taken over my mind. "Don't want to be an American idiot, one nation controlled by the media." I agree with that.
But a part of me is here and my feelings come with it. I got an email yesterday that I checked last night, and it informed me that the press was going to be at the BSU at 11:30 AM. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to have any part of it. I don't know why the media feels obligated to come and film us. Yes, this girl from my school found over $30,000 working in New Orleans, Louisiana, over spring break. They returned it and everything. Now this girl has 15 minutes of fame and all these news shows are interviewing her and all that.
No, I'm not jealous. I'm disgusted. The campus minister wants all these news things to come. I don't understand why. But I know that I hate the media. and the girl doesn't even want to be interviewed! That disgusts me even more. I'm confused, but disgusted with all this. But I don't understand.
So yeah, I decided to stay away from the school today. No I didn't miss classes. I don't have any classes on Wednesday. I just go to help out with praise and worship services on Wednesdays. I decided to stay away because if I was shown on camera, I don't want that. There was no guarantee that I would be shown on camera but I have a feeling that I would have. The main reason is because I don't support the media being at the Baptist Student Union. I didn't want to have any part of it and all that. Like I said, I hate the media.
It sucks though, because I missed the lunch that they had there. I keep wondering what they had for lunch too. Blah. I hate the way I feel sometimes. But I'm glad that I stayed home and slept all day. I needed it.
I'm stressed out about school and I'm really depressed. I hate my life. I really suck right now. Even I think so. I'm really tired so I'm gonna go back to sleep. And the fact is, is that I feel like no one cares. I know they do and all but I feel like they don't. I feel weird.
I'm not really here. But the Green Day song has taken over my mind. "Don't want to be an American idiot, one nation controlled by the media." I agree with that.