Choking my Star Wars figurines
ok, I can't handle the holidays now. There are so many days where I'm just lying in bed crying my eyes out and asking God to go ahead and kill my dad NOW! all he does is complain complain complain. Then he threatens me that there's not going to be any presents for me under the tree Christmas morning. Sorry, folks . . . oh . . . and DAD, but Christmas IS NOT . . . I repeat . . . IS NOT about presents under the tree. It's about Christ. You hear me? CHRIST! not presents. So yeah, I could care less about the presents. I can go out and buy anything I want following Christmas, so basically I've made a list for myself so that I can take that list and go to the store and buy whatever I want after Christmas. I could care less about the presents. I just celebrate Christmas because that's the day when my Lord and Savior was born. So yeah, Dad, you can take the presents and shove them! So yeah, I don't want Christmas with my dad if it's going to be like this. I'm depressed every single day because of him. He's a horrible person.
On the bright side, I saw Chronicles of Narnia. It was all right. I couldn't stand the little girl though. She was such a whiner and everything. It was annoying! Yes, I know that's how it is in the book too, but when I read the book, I could just block out all the whining. Anyways, there's a lot of biblical allegory stuff in the movie. It made me tear up a couple of times. It was good for me. But I do hate feeling torn up inside.
There are just times when I'm enjoying something and then something happens and I just feel my heart being torn in half, in fours, in eighths, in tenths, and so on. Of course, tears come after that. It sucks, but it's good for me to have a good cry but right now I can't control the tears that come. I guess it's all right. I don't mind crying . . . as long as I'm alone when I'm crying.
I think I'm depressed. My crying has become uncontrollable and I'm withdrawing from friends because I don't think they care. I feel like I'm alone. I really hope this passes.
okay. I'm through. Later!
On the bright side, I saw Chronicles of Narnia. It was all right. I couldn't stand the little girl though. She was such a whiner and everything. It was annoying! Yes, I know that's how it is in the book too, but when I read the book, I could just block out all the whining. Anyways, there's a lot of biblical allegory stuff in the movie. It made me tear up a couple of times. It was good for me. But I do hate feeling torn up inside.
There are just times when I'm enjoying something and then something happens and I just feel my heart being torn in half, in fours, in eighths, in tenths, and so on. Of course, tears come after that. It sucks, but it's good for me to have a good cry but right now I can't control the tears that come. I guess it's all right. I don't mind crying . . . as long as I'm alone when I'm crying.
I think I'm depressed. My crying has become uncontrollable and I'm withdrawing from friends because I don't think they care. I feel like I'm alone. I really hope this passes.
okay. I'm through. Later!