Feeling Jovial today!
well, today was a good day. I bought myself ice cream, whipped cream, and milk so I could make myself as many milkshakes as I wanted. Also, we did some activities around the BSU that required scissors, so since the BSU didn't have some good pairs of scissors, I went to the store and bought scissors for people to use. I hope Marty finds out about this so I can get reimbursed for the scissors. they were $3.05 a pair so I spent $6.10 on two pairs of scissors, unless George W. Bush raised taxes. Then I don't know how many dollars I spent on two pairs of scissors! anyways, right now, I dont' really care about being reimbursed, but I know when I really need money, I'll care. I'll be sittin' around going "man, I wish Marty reimbursed me for those dang scissors!" But if I had had enough money, I would have bought everyone lunch! Yeah, I was feeling THAT great. Furthermore, I laughed at EVERYTHING that everyone said. I was jovial.
And now, I'm about to bring myself down and then after that, I'm going to go to sleep!
By the way, Marty STILL hasn't put a key outside the BSU, but I know it's because of the homeless people getting in the BSU and sleeping in that building overnight. Cause sometime Marty would waltz in and find the guy sleeping on a sofa in the center. He'd wake the guy up, call campus security, and have security take the guy to the homeless shelter, whether the guy wanted to go or not.
But I'm scared to ask Marty to give me a key so I can get into the BSU when no one else is there. One, it's selfish of me to do that, and two, last year, I betrayed Marty's trust in me. I would sleep there and all and I knew that it was a no-no, but i was so tired and depressed that I couldn't help but sleep to get away from problems at home and school. So, I'm not really secure enough and I'm not in a good enough place right now to ask for a key. I still hate myself. . . sometimes just for that reason!
I want to leave the BSU. I can't. I want to die. sometimes that's the only way to get away from the BSU. . . for me to die. it sucks. but, I'm not depressed enough to do that. oh well, I think all I want is just a key to the BSU. I've tried to get it in over ten ways and it doesn't work. I know I'm not ready but I can't accept that!
well, anyways, I'm really tired so I'm gonna go to bed. See ya later! Hope I didn't bum anyone out too much!
And now, I'm about to bring myself down and then after that, I'm going to go to sleep!
By the way, Marty STILL hasn't put a key outside the BSU, but I know it's because of the homeless people getting in the BSU and sleeping in that building overnight. Cause sometime Marty would waltz in and find the guy sleeping on a sofa in the center. He'd wake the guy up, call campus security, and have security take the guy to the homeless shelter, whether the guy wanted to go or not.
But I'm scared to ask Marty to give me a key so I can get into the BSU when no one else is there. One, it's selfish of me to do that, and two, last year, I betrayed Marty's trust in me. I would sleep there and all and I knew that it was a no-no, but i was so tired and depressed that I couldn't help but sleep to get away from problems at home and school. So, I'm not really secure enough and I'm not in a good enough place right now to ask for a key. I still hate myself. . . sometimes just for that reason!
I want to leave the BSU. I can't. I want to die. sometimes that's the only way to get away from the BSU. . . for me to die. it sucks. but, I'm not depressed enough to do that. oh well, I think all I want is just a key to the BSU. I've tried to get it in over ten ways and it doesn't work. I know I'm not ready but I can't accept that!
well, anyways, I'm really tired so I'm gonna go to bed. See ya later! Hope I didn't bum anyone out too much!