its weird...
I'm actually ok.
Like I really thought that everything was going to fall apart a few weeks ago.
I'm really stressed out about things that I didn't think I would be stressed out about, but everything is working out.
Everytime I write about how I good I'm feeling, life usually brings me back down so I'm scared to write it, but its true right now.
I thought I would be crying myself to sleep everynight for months, but I haven't cried in about a week.
hmmm
I mean...school is already stressing me out because my classes are harder than I expected...
Sorority is kinda stressing me out because of recrutiment...
Money...I'm still not making enough...but Its better than what I had...
Sometimes I get lonely, but I'm ok.
I still have a really amazing best friend and I think that fact alone is helping cope with the current situation because I know everything will be ok.
As long as I still have that normal closeness in my life...I'm ok. I was so scared it was the end of everything, but its just the beginning of a new adventure.
I don't understand why people think I'm doing the wrong thing and why people think I'm just hurting myself...I don't just sit there and cry to people about anything. I'm truly ok, so why can't the people around me just grasp the fact that I know how to live my life and I know what I'm doing.
I don't always have all the answer and sometimes things may seem really messed up and weird, but people don't understand how different my relationships are in my life.
Everybody has a different story. There is no right and wrong way to live your life...it is what it is.
Life would be pretty boring if you had to live by rules. Therefore, I say...do what you please. Don't hold back because you feel like you should...if you have something to say, then say it. If you feel something and you want to share it...then share it. If you have a meemory you want to let out, then smile and relive it....or cry and relive it...whatever.
Life is too short to let other people tell you how to live it. Follow your own path. You do what you feel is best and if people can't understand that, oh well. They will deal with it.
I know I don't stick up for myself enough. I wish I could stand up and tell people to shut up and leave me alone, but I just sit back and take suggestions on how to live my own life.
Anyway, I was talking to J the other day and he asked me if I figured out what I want to do with my life yet...my future...and I really didn't have an answer for him.
I listed off things I would love to do...but they all seem like they are not possible.
He really is a type of guidance for me. Now all the sudden he really has me thinking about it. I'm really worried because I have one year left and I don't know what to do with it.
I just hope everything works out.
Ok...wellllll I have my first test of the semester tomorow so I should prob go do some homework. I really just came to update and say everything is ok, but I'm glad I kinda got off topic and said everything else.
Just something to think about I guess :)
Peace.
Brooke
Like I really thought that everything was going to fall apart a few weeks ago.
I'm really stressed out about things that I didn't think I would be stressed out about, but everything is working out.
Everytime I write about how I good I'm feeling, life usually brings me back down so I'm scared to write it, but its true right now.
I thought I would be crying myself to sleep everynight for months, but I haven't cried in about a week.
hmmm
I mean...school is already stressing me out because my classes are harder than I expected...
Sorority is kinda stressing me out because of recrutiment...
Money...I'm still not making enough...but Its better than what I had...
Sometimes I get lonely, but I'm ok.
I still have a really amazing best friend and I think that fact alone is helping cope with the current situation because I know everything will be ok.
As long as I still have that normal closeness in my life...I'm ok. I was so scared it was the end of everything, but its just the beginning of a new adventure.
I don't understand why people think I'm doing the wrong thing and why people think I'm just hurting myself...I don't just sit there and cry to people about anything. I'm truly ok, so why can't the people around me just grasp the fact that I know how to live my life and I know what I'm doing.
I don't always have all the answer and sometimes things may seem really messed up and weird, but people don't understand how different my relationships are in my life.
Everybody has a different story. There is no right and wrong way to live your life...it is what it is.
Life would be pretty boring if you had to live by rules. Therefore, I say...do what you please. Don't hold back because you feel like you should...if you have something to say, then say it. If you feel something and you want to share it...then share it. If you have a meemory you want to let out, then smile and relive it....or cry and relive it...whatever.
Life is too short to let other people tell you how to live it. Follow your own path. You do what you feel is best and if people can't understand that, oh well. They will deal with it.
I know I don't stick up for myself enough. I wish I could stand up and tell people to shut up and leave me alone, but I just sit back and take suggestions on how to live my own life.
Anyway, I was talking to J the other day and he asked me if I figured out what I want to do with my life yet...my future...and I really didn't have an answer for him.
I listed off things I would love to do...but they all seem like they are not possible.
He really is a type of guidance for me. Now all the sudden he really has me thinking about it. I'm really worried because I have one year left and I don't know what to do with it.
I just hope everything works out.
Ok...wellllll I have my first test of the semester tomorow so I should prob go do some homework. I really just came to update and say everything is ok, but I'm glad I kinda got off topic and said everything else.
Just something to think about I guess :)
Peace.
Brooke