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Hey, I'm moving to Chicago! Saturday! March...30?31? What the fuck is saturday? I don't have a job! Or an apartment! I'm a fucking indecisive nitwit! Hahahaha!
Yeah.
So, I decided to write a post and be brutally honest about myself. Because if you can't be honest under the cover of livejournal, when can you be?
Also, I think this is tantamount to whoring, in some way, shape or form, I'm sure of it...maybe just exhibitionism...anyways, here goes:
-I don't want to get a degree...period...I hate school and I hate the idea that I have to live my life according to anyone's academic standards other than my own. I'm only going to college because deep inside I am still a little girl trying desperately to win the approval of my parents who are too tired and overworked to deal with me.
-I'm not smart. I have a vague understanding of many different things and am also incredibly curious, so when you put these things together they give the appearance of intelligence.
-I'm not interested in people. I'd much rather go for a walk and see all of the beautiful things around me and not say a word all day long.
-I love to sing more than anything else. Nothing makes me happier than finding an empty room with great acoustics and being left alone to sing whatever I want all day long.
-I am immature. I understand how I should behave, but inside, I have the emotional knee-jerk reaction of a child. I have the mind of a 30 year old who worries too much, but the heart of an 11 year old who just wants a pony for her birthday.
-The only thing I have to offer is love. And when I see the amazing things that others are doing around me, I am ashamed.
I'm tired, but I feel better.
You guys should try this sometime.
Yeah.
So, I decided to write a post and be brutally honest about myself. Because if you can't be honest under the cover of livejournal, when can you be?
Also, I think this is tantamount to whoring, in some way, shape or form, I'm sure of it...maybe just exhibitionism...anyways, here goes:
-I don't want to get a degree...period...I hate school and I hate the idea that I have to live my life according to anyone's academic standards other than my own. I'm only going to college because deep inside I am still a little girl trying desperately to win the approval of my parents who are too tired and overworked to deal with me.
-I'm not smart. I have a vague understanding of many different things and am also incredibly curious, so when you put these things together they give the appearance of intelligence.
-I'm not interested in people. I'd much rather go for a walk and see all of the beautiful things around me and not say a word all day long.
-I love to sing more than anything else. Nothing makes me happier than finding an empty room with great acoustics and being left alone to sing whatever I want all day long.
-I am immature. I understand how I should behave, but inside, I have the emotional knee-jerk reaction of a child. I have the mind of a 30 year old who worries too much, but the heart of an 11 year old who just wants a pony for her birthday.
-The only thing I have to offer is love. And when I see the amazing things that others are doing around me, I am ashamed.
I'm tired, but I feel better.
You guys should try this sometime.