Hi doing good but a lot has happened
Hey everyone. Yes I am still here and living I just dont come on this thing often anymore so thats why I really havent updated. Well the last time I updated was when I was still in school and yeh I am finally out of school this semester. Acually been out for 1 week and a couple days which is good but time is kind of going pretty fast. I did awesome in my all my classes by getting all A's. My goal was a 4.0 and I recieved it hehehe. Go me. I really thank God, My parnets, and Susan that gave me support through this and never told me to give up they just told me to keep trying and just work your but off. It did pay off let me tell you.
Me and Susan are doing very good. I love this girl sooo sooo much. I learn about something new I like about everyday from her. I love how she just calls me when she gets everychance she gets hehhee. I love it. She gave me so much support through school and was understanding everyday moore and moore. Its like everythig I have done in the past she doesnt care about she just ingores it and Im like wow. Sometime you know I can not even look at myself because of my past and just wow she just makes me feeeeelll soo good. I treat her like my wife, my queen, and my princess. I never respected a girl sooo much as much as I respect her. I dont hardly swear anymore, I dont cry hardly, in fact I am a man. If Im down she picks me back up, doesnt even get mad at me at anything which is soo awesome. I love you my susan soo much.
This next paragraph is now going to talk about me loosing my best friend.
Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and a month prior or so:
Jason has been my blood since me and him were born. My mum and his mum are sisters. We are very close. When we were younger we did play fight but what kids dont right. He teased me and yes its ok I forgave him. Me and him looked backed on it and laughed about it. Last year he was always there for me and I always been there for him. Me and him did a lot of things together that best friends do. It made me happy that I have a blood realative be there by my side, protect me and stick up for me no matter what. We always went to Starbucks together and I would alwas be concerned for him because he smoked, he drank and just didnt seem life was going for him but I was ALWAYS there to listen and everything. This past month or even before this I have seen him change like sooooo much. I was so afriad to say where happened to my Jason, where did he go. Its like he was ingorning his family and just people close to him except his friend Justin. Who was Justin? He was just a friend, but I was his cousin and his brothers he even ingorned. Christmas eve I saw the biggest change, we started to disagree on soo many things and he did scare me how he talked. I cant say it on here but it was pretty scary that I was just praying so hard for him. It didnt work though. The devil was playing a game called, lets see how strong you can be even though someone close is falling away from you. He was becoming obessed with hunting, killing animals and such, and didnt even have money for this, let alone a car he doesnt have anymore. I always gave him advice, would he listen no. Even worse, he wouldnt listen to his parnets and not even his brothers. Christmas day was the end of this. When I went over my aunts house for christmas day I talked to him and said sorry his dad was in the hospital, his response was, "everyone dies anyways who cares its F'in bs anyways doesnt matter" and Im like J you have so much to live for why you saying that, his response was nothing he just ingorned me and went inside. Then an hour later after dinner, which was awesome, my mummy said can you and jason take out the rubbish and my uncle steps in and starts yelling at my mum, everyone flipped out on him, even I did. I left I couldnt take it anymore, I went for a walk. He finally left. When I was walking I called Susan and I told her everything. It was just wow for her you know. This is not normal for my family. Then Im walking back Jason my boy is outside, and in a rude way he says come over her. He starts smoking of course and I said bro isnt it bs that what Uncle Mike said and hes like no its normal, and I raised my voice and Im like bro he made my mum cry dont say that crap, and hes like stop yelling at me and Im like Im not alright Im just mad, and Im like bro what the hell is your problem, your putting an act on me and Im sorry your dad is in the hospital but you dont have to treat me like this and Im like im sorry I really am, and hes like thats it im going to beat your ass, and I just pushed him and I said bro Im going away, bye, and bam I got slammed against the garage door, and then he threw me on a car, broke my gold chain off and I pushed him a little to get off me, and I said F u Jason and I was crying soo much, like I never cried before and then everyone came out and I said stop and so did everyone else, and then he did something I would never thought he would do before , he PUNCHED me in my face, on the side thank god, and I was like crying and shaking and just everything. It was over. I had my eyes closed for a sec and I was like Susan please help me pleaseeeeee. They took him in the car they took me inside and layed me down. Everyone took care of me. An hour later we agreed to shake hands one last time. I was like sorry Jason and Jason was like Im calling you in a week or month whatever, and sounded so demanding and he said by the way Merry F'in Christmas and slammed the door. I cried moore when I heard that. To me I lost a great friend, my family is very ashamed of him right now, I forgive him but he like knows everything about me, but its like dang why did he have to do that for. Its his lost. He can have his friend Justin. Let him have his racist friend that just cares about hunting, the marines and not school. No one cares anymore.
Friends come and go. But family doesnt, it meant a lot to me. But Susan will always be here by my side. Mwahh Love you Baby.
God Blesss
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Me and Susan are doing very good. I love this girl sooo sooo much. I learn about something new I like about everyday from her. I love how she just calls me when she gets everychance she gets hehhee. I love it. She gave me so much support through school and was understanding everyday moore and moore. Its like everythig I have done in the past she doesnt care about she just ingores it and Im like wow. Sometime you know I can not even look at myself because of my past and just wow she just makes me feeeeelll soo good. I treat her like my wife, my queen, and my princess. I never respected a girl sooo much as much as I respect her. I dont hardly swear anymore, I dont cry hardly, in fact I am a man. If Im down she picks me back up, doesnt even get mad at me at anything which is soo awesome. I love you my susan soo much.
This next paragraph is now going to talk about me loosing my best friend.
Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and a month prior or so:
Jason has been my blood since me and him were born. My mum and his mum are sisters. We are very close. When we were younger we did play fight but what kids dont right. He teased me and yes its ok I forgave him. Me and him looked backed on it and laughed about it. Last year he was always there for me and I always been there for him. Me and him did a lot of things together that best friends do. It made me happy that I have a blood realative be there by my side, protect me and stick up for me no matter what. We always went to Starbucks together and I would alwas be concerned for him because he smoked, he drank and just didnt seem life was going for him but I was ALWAYS there to listen and everything. This past month or even before this I have seen him change like sooooo much. I was so afriad to say where happened to my Jason, where did he go. Its like he was ingorning his family and just people close to him except his friend Justin. Who was Justin? He was just a friend, but I was his cousin and his brothers he even ingorned. Christmas eve I saw the biggest change, we started to disagree on soo many things and he did scare me how he talked. I cant say it on here but it was pretty scary that I was just praying so hard for him. It didnt work though. The devil was playing a game called, lets see how strong you can be even though someone close is falling away from you. He was becoming obessed with hunting, killing animals and such, and didnt even have money for this, let alone a car he doesnt have anymore. I always gave him advice, would he listen no. Even worse, he wouldnt listen to his parnets and not even his brothers. Christmas day was the end of this. When I went over my aunts house for christmas day I talked to him and said sorry his dad was in the hospital, his response was, "everyone dies anyways who cares its F'in bs anyways doesnt matter" and Im like J you have so much to live for why you saying that, his response was nothing he just ingorned me and went inside. Then an hour later after dinner, which was awesome, my mummy said can you and jason take out the rubbish and my uncle steps in and starts yelling at my mum, everyone flipped out on him, even I did. I left I couldnt take it anymore, I went for a walk. He finally left. When I was walking I called Susan and I told her everything. It was just wow for her you know. This is not normal for my family. Then Im walking back Jason my boy is outside, and in a rude way he says come over her. He starts smoking of course and I said bro isnt it bs that what Uncle Mike said and hes like no its normal, and I raised my voice and Im like bro he made my mum cry dont say that crap, and hes like stop yelling at me and Im like Im not alright Im just mad, and Im like bro what the hell is your problem, your putting an act on me and Im sorry your dad is in the hospital but you dont have to treat me like this and Im like im sorry I really am, and hes like thats it im going to beat your ass, and I just pushed him and I said bro Im going away, bye, and bam I got slammed against the garage door, and then he threw me on a car, broke my gold chain off and I pushed him a little to get off me, and I said F u Jason and I was crying soo much, like I never cried before and then everyone came out and I said stop and so did everyone else, and then he did something I would never thought he would do before , he PUNCHED me in my face, on the side thank god, and I was like crying and shaking and just everything. It was over. I had my eyes closed for a sec and I was like Susan please help me pleaseeeeee. They took him in the car they took me inside and layed me down. Everyone took care of me. An hour later we agreed to shake hands one last time. I was like sorry Jason and Jason was like Im calling you in a week or month whatever, and sounded so demanding and he said by the way Merry F'in Christmas and slammed the door. I cried moore when I heard that. To me I lost a great friend, my family is very ashamed of him right now, I forgive him but he like knows everything about me, but its like dang why did he have to do that for. Its his lost. He can have his friend Justin. Let him have his racist friend that just cares about hunting, the marines and not school. No one cares anymore.
Friends come and go. But family doesnt, it meant a lot to me. But Susan will always be here by my side. Mwahh Love you Baby.
God Blesss
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