Just a few words.
I've been thinking alot lately, about school, about friends, about why things are the way they are. I've realized, to my sadness, that I've become too pessimistic and anilitical lately.
As a teacher, I don't want to have to worry about teaching tests or about how to treat people of another culture. Too much prejustice has infultrated the public schools. I'm tired of that holding back and opressing valid students who happen to not come from a background that is predominately mainstream.
I've also realized that I may be isolating my friends. I was reading some of my old entries, and I realized that I never said thank you for understanding when Ricardo passed away. That really meant alot to me and I appreciate everyone's support. There are so many wonderful people that I know that mean the world to me. I'm not very good about sharing how I feel about someone to that person and sometimes I don't say what I really should say. What I truly feel for you all is love and respect. Sometimes we may not agree, but that doesn't mean I stop loving you. It means that I learn from you and understand you better. I miss that connectedness.
I miss who I was. I miss not wondering if someone was using me or one of my friends for personal gain or another ulterior motive. I miss smiling at strangers and not worrying if they were going to harrass me. I miss my church and the people there. I miss looking up at the sky. I miss reading for fun. I miss...
As a teacher, I don't want to have to worry about teaching tests or about how to treat people of another culture. Too much prejustice has infultrated the public schools. I'm tired of that holding back and opressing valid students who happen to not come from a background that is predominately mainstream.
I've also realized that I may be isolating my friends. I was reading some of my old entries, and I realized that I never said thank you for understanding when Ricardo passed away. That really meant alot to me and I appreciate everyone's support. There are so many wonderful people that I know that mean the world to me. I'm not very good about sharing how I feel about someone to that person and sometimes I don't say what I really should say. What I truly feel for you all is love and respect. Sometimes we may not agree, but that doesn't mean I stop loving you. It means that I learn from you and understand you better. I miss that connectedness.
I miss who I was. I miss not wondering if someone was using me or one of my friends for personal gain or another ulterior motive. I miss smiling at strangers and not worrying if they were going to harrass me. I miss my church and the people there. I miss looking up at the sky. I miss reading for fun. I miss...