May 30, 2004 00:52
I swear everything gets so dramatized sometimes. Stupid bullshit gets blown way out of porporation and people cant just stop the stupid games and get on with life. I dont understand shit I feel like I have to constantly prove myself to my friends and I dont like that. I dont think I should have to feel like that. Its like no matter what I do I cant ever get things right. Like I try to stay out of the bullshit and the petty fights but then I just get blamed for ditching people but what he hell am I supposed to do I hang out with you during the day and try to get you to come but you wont.
Graduation was alright but theres just to much shit going on right now so I dont think its officially hit me yet. I'm really looking fo a job right now I hate having to worry about money all the time and if I was working it wouldn't be like that. I have to take my car that I just got mind you back to the dealer because its leaking oil and my service engine light comes on so that sucks, Im going to be car-less once again for a little bit. Oh well life goes on.