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So I'm updating real quick while Erika and Korey and Karen finish watching the commentary on "Once More With Feeling" (Buffy episode). We saw the episode minus the commentary and then watched it with the commentary. So I'm thoroughly Buffy-ed out.
And I'm checking my email and stuff. Only I haven't got any email. The last email I got (non-spam) was I think someone's post to one oif my entries. The last non-LJ email I got was a week ago Saturday. Yeah. Long time. Blblblblbl. Also wah.
But MPJ did reply to my email, just not in email. When I hugged her the last time, she said we'd have our talk in January sometime. So yeah, January second, I'll be emailing her. "After the first of the year" right? Yeah... I know, I'm lame, I'm pathetic. But hey, I haven't cried today. At least, not really crying.
I went to the dentist today. I was all excited because I thought they were going to make my jaw stop hurting like it does ('cause I got my wisdom teeth out in what, October, but my jaw still hurts like it was just recently.) But no, not only do I get the mean lady (I used to get the really nice one, she was cool), but the dentist just said that I should wait more to see if it gets better and if it starts to hurt worse I should have mom call. Um, hello? It is hurting worse, hence I'm telling them that it's hurting worse than before. Duh! URGH it makes me so mad. Yeah and that mean lady has something against gums. Okay, so maybe it's my fault that they're sore, 'cause I didn't shove my brush into the socket and make it bleed to make sure I got all the plaque out. But that doesn't mean she has to shove her pointy stick into it and make it really bleed. And she gave me some special extra small headed brush to shove back there. Obviously, if I needed the special brush then I couldn't have done it before so it wasn't my fault, right? URGH!
What else? I talked to Chelsea the other day. From band camp. We were talking about auditions, and I asked if it was going to be cold. And she said that if -25 wind chill was cold, then it will be brutal. Why am I going to IA in January again? Oh yes, that's right, because I'm freaking insane. Also I love Wartburg.
I don't have a picture of MPJ. Not a good one at least. Even though I don't take pictures all that often, I love having pictures. Especially pictures of Real Smiles. Not those cheesy fake things people put on when they're smiling for a camera. The real smiles, when they're laughing. For graduation I think mom is planning (or was considering maybe planning) getting me a photo album with pictures of all my favorite places and people and such, so that when I'm homesick I can flip through it. I really want that. Heh, I've even begun working on a list of places/people that I want in it.
How can you miss someone that hasn't been gone any longer than normal? I would usually only see MPJ once a week, sometimes less. So how come it's been only one day and I'm missing her like mad? Yeah, I know, because I know that it's going to be 23 days until I see her again, and then God only knows how long after that.
Also, I'm on another boy kick. So who wants to go to the mall in teenagery clothes and find guys? Anyone? *sigh*
Oh, and Erika and I got into the Variety Show.
What do I do when I'm sad? I mean, crying is all well and good, and I guess it makes me feel better, at the moment, but it's not exactly a good long-run fixing thing deal. Or is it? I mean, I'm trying to find "coping mechanisms" to deal and all... you know, away from what Used To Be. But I'm not exactly finding them. I'm not giving up and reverting, I'm just wondering if anyone has any good insights on what to do.
Alright, this really has been a long enough ramble. I'm off to bigger and better things...
Also, I wish I could find my locket.
And I'm checking my email and stuff. Only I haven't got any email. The last email I got (non-spam) was I think someone's post to one oif my entries. The last non-LJ email I got was a week ago Saturday. Yeah. Long time. Blblblblbl. Also wah.
But MPJ did reply to my email, just not in email. When I hugged her the last time, she said we'd have our talk in January sometime. So yeah, January second, I'll be emailing her. "After the first of the year" right? Yeah... I know, I'm lame, I'm pathetic. But hey, I haven't cried today. At least, not really crying.
I went to the dentist today. I was all excited because I thought they were going to make my jaw stop hurting like it does ('cause I got my wisdom teeth out in what, October, but my jaw still hurts like it was just recently.) But no, not only do I get the mean lady (I used to get the really nice one, she was cool), but the dentist just said that I should wait more to see if it gets better and if it starts to hurt worse I should have mom call. Um, hello? It is hurting worse, hence I'm telling them that it's hurting worse than before. Duh! URGH it makes me so mad. Yeah and that mean lady has something against gums. Okay, so maybe it's my fault that they're sore, 'cause I didn't shove my brush into the socket and make it bleed to make sure I got all the plaque out. But that doesn't mean she has to shove her pointy stick into it and make it really bleed. And she gave me some special extra small headed brush to shove back there. Obviously, if I needed the special brush then I couldn't have done it before so it wasn't my fault, right? URGH!
What else? I talked to Chelsea the other day. From band camp. We were talking about auditions, and I asked if it was going to be cold. And she said that if -25 wind chill was cold, then it will be brutal. Why am I going to IA in January again? Oh yes, that's right, because I'm freaking insane. Also I love Wartburg.
I don't have a picture of MPJ. Not a good one at least. Even though I don't take pictures all that often, I love having pictures. Especially pictures of Real Smiles. Not those cheesy fake things people put on when they're smiling for a camera. The real smiles, when they're laughing. For graduation I think mom is planning (or was considering maybe planning) getting me a photo album with pictures of all my favorite places and people and such, so that when I'm homesick I can flip through it. I really want that. Heh, I've even begun working on a list of places/people that I want in it.
How can you miss someone that hasn't been gone any longer than normal? I would usually only see MPJ once a week, sometimes less. So how come it's been only one day and I'm missing her like mad? Yeah, I know, because I know that it's going to be 23 days until I see her again, and then God only knows how long after that.
Also, I'm on another boy kick. So who wants to go to the mall in teenagery clothes and find guys? Anyone? *sigh*
Oh, and Erika and I got into the Variety Show.
What do I do when I'm sad? I mean, crying is all well and good, and I guess it makes me feel better, at the moment, but it's not exactly a good long-run fixing thing deal. Or is it? I mean, I'm trying to find "coping mechanisms" to deal and all... you know, away from what Used To Be. But I'm not exactly finding them. I'm not giving up and reverting, I'm just wondering if anyone has any good insights on what to do.
Alright, this really has been a long enough ramble. I'm off to bigger and better things...
Also, I wish I could find my locket.