Christmas?
I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like the only thing I've been talking about the past day or so is how much this Christmas sucks. She hasn't emailed me back since like, last week (she had been doing really well with it too), and I really want to know what she thought of what I gave her for Christmas, and the miniletter I wrote her about how much she means to me. (Because I couldn't find the strength to tell it to her face, I don't know why.) The present was a crossstitch thing, with a church, and the quote, Phil 1:3, "I thank my God everytime I remember you." And also one of my sr portraits with a little message on the back. And I doubt that there's going to be time tomorrow for her to talk to me about it.
I already know what I want for my birthday more than anything else in the whole wide world. I want to go out to lunch with her at Panera or something like that (we went to Panera once), and I want a big, huge Mommy Pastor JMe hug. More than anything else, that's what I want. (And don't worry, I'll definately post that again when it gets closer to Feb 12.)
On another note, what I got for Christmas: (probably not everything, but as much as I can remember)
* the soundtrack to Piglet's Big Movie
* DVD of Brother Bear, that movie makes me cry, always
* a puffy elephant thing... hard to describe...
* a little wooden elephant
* an awesome glass orange ring that I will be wearing (if not on my finger because they hurt, then on a chain around my neck)
* a trip to Buil-A-Bear
* a whole year of service for my phone + 150 minutes (tracfone guys)
* a yellow squishy pillow (like the squishy blue man Andrea gave me)
* an orange koala
* a service & song hymnal (aka the red book)
* this book I had picked out before... a hymnal, but with no words, just the tunes!
* Cranium! I rock at that game!!
* a license plate & holder for my bike. has my name. it's MD Bay plates too, so when I'm in IA people will know.
I can't remember anything else, so I'm going to go do other stuff... God tomorrow is going to be hell. I can't even imagine what it's going to be like, in terms of what we're going to do. I always daydream out situations before they happen. They never go like I think, but I always do. For tomorrow, I am having the hardest time even doing that. I don't think I'm letting myself comprehend it yet.
Have a great Christmas guys...
I already know what I want for my birthday more than anything else in the whole wide world. I want to go out to lunch with her at Panera or something like that (we went to Panera once), and I want a big, huge Mommy Pastor JMe hug. More than anything else, that's what I want. (And don't worry, I'll definately post that again when it gets closer to Feb 12.)
On another note, what I got for Christmas: (probably not everything, but as much as I can remember)
* the soundtrack to Piglet's Big Movie
* DVD of Brother Bear, that movie makes me cry, always
* a puffy elephant thing... hard to describe...
* a little wooden elephant
* an awesome glass orange ring that I will be wearing (if not on my finger because they hurt, then on a chain around my neck)
* a trip to Buil-A-Bear
* a whole year of service for my phone + 150 minutes (tracfone guys)
* a yellow squishy pillow (like the squishy blue man Andrea gave me)
* an orange koala
* a service & song hymnal (aka the red book)
* this book I had picked out before... a hymnal, but with no words, just the tunes!
* Cranium! I rock at that game!!
* a license plate & holder for my bike. has my name. it's MD Bay plates too, so when I'm in IA people will know.
I can't remember anything else, so I'm going to go do other stuff... God tomorrow is going to be hell. I can't even imagine what it's going to be like, in terms of what we're going to do. I always daydream out situations before they happen. They never go like I think, but I always do. For tomorrow, I am having the hardest time even doing that. I don't think I'm letting myself comprehend it yet.
Have a great Christmas guys...