The Past Doesn't Dissapear but Brighter Futures Do
I was studyng for my calculus class today and it sucked as usual but I remembered that I had to get ready for one of my mom's parties and as much as I hate going to them I enjoy the getting dressed up for them. Well this new party that I went to and rushed home from included half of the towns people, and it sucks. It sucks because for the first time in a month, I have had to address the ex fiance situation.
I have been so happy making new friends and being with Kia that I almost forgot that I handed my virginity away to my ex fiance and that his family lives in the same place that I do. Not to mention that we all share the same social world. Well the social world has discovered the fun of making me squirm, especially all these who plastic surgery queens who want a newly wed memeber to join their shopping and starving/ surgery brigade. I call them the barbie band, cause they all stick together and can't move all their parts.
Well this is the first time that I have really been back in the social world and everyone has finally heard about the whole break up engagement thing. I entered the party tonight because I had to more than i wanted to, and low and behold, at the bar was Mrs. Livingston. She was of course getting herself a martini before the main course was served. The entered the building, subjectively after my mother did because I went to pick up Kia from her house so we could drudge in together. I felt like all eyes were on me when I walked in, because the Livingston Family gave me the dirtiest looks ever. The worst part of it was that after the initial shock of seeing flowed through the room, and everyone had finally gotten their "Rumors" addressed to the point that they were satisfied, Matt came in with his new fling. He is home for break I guess, not chasing after anymore ballerina's I noticed when i saw the new girl but she was alot more "vibrant and easy" than I ever was.
My mother believe it or not, went over to Matt and gave him a hug and almost like threw him over in my direction as if I was prey or something. I think she was more excited to see him than me. Which doesn't surprise me in the tiniest bit because she despises me right now for not going back to Juilliard and choosing to go to Berkeley instead.
Matt thank god did not head over to me and Kia right away, I am not sure how much he knows about me right now, but he kind of gave a smirk while looking me up and down like I was meat or something.
Sometimes I wished I didn't have this complex where I feel like I owe my mom something for giving me life because if I didn't then I would probably be happy living with my dad and not my mom. I mean, it really isnt a big deal because really, they live in the same town, in the same general area and I have my own room and stuff at my dad's compound, but I spend more time then not at my mom's place because well, most of my crap is there, and I feel obligated to almost because 1, she is my mother and she kind of has that control over me, and 2, my dad and stepmom are used to living life without kids around most of the year so, even though they love and me stuff, I know that they would forget that I were there when doing inappropriate things. They have problems adjusting in the summer's when we kids are home. They just arent used to it and I don't feel like imposing and at least at my mom's her guys change so often, and she is used to having kids around more than not, she has learned to bring to the bedroom, and its my mother, I am just used to her bullshit and stuff, I kind of like thinking of my dad and stepmom in the they are still great people idea.
Needless to say, my step mom was at the party and she gave me a hug when my mother was being a bitch, and even though they are friends I think she sides with me more in situations because I mean in a way i am her daughter, step anyway, and the closests thing she has to one, and she is more sympathetic than my mother. Sometimes I wish she were my actual blood so that I know I have a mother who would offer me a kidney if need be it.
Needless to say, appetizers, mingling and dinner went without a hitch. Granted, dinner isnt much of anything but play food, I mean dinner was like appetizers. They have this new in thing going around a lot of parties, where they have different sections set up around the room where you can choose different small portions and they serve it in these like bite size portions, well you can pretty much eat them standing, and they have tables and stuff but since everyone likes to mingle, they are used more to sit your purse down. The cocktail tables however are the ones that are used, they are standing tables that you can mingle around and stuff. This allows you to invite more people than seating allows and nobody would ever know. Also it allows you to make use of the 2k you drop for a dj. They DJ is working all night long. Well the first hour I was there with Matt being there also with his new barbie, we avoided each other very well, if I had not seen him earlier, i would have never known that he was there. But I guess he really is a hawk because, as soon as i was vaulnerable he showed up to abuse. He came over with a smirk, and totally called me out, telling me that mommy's little girl comes second place even to him. That I shouldnt have left him because I was never going to find a guy to look like he did again. Nobody wants a drop out ballerina, who is nothin more than a stick. I was kind of crushed, I don't know why I let him get to me, but I do, and it sucks. After about 5 minutes of the me standing there shrinking by the minute and him totally being an ass, he started the rampade about me being alone forever and that I the whole nobody wants you psychobabble that guys go through, thank god for Kia though, I think, anyway, she got somebody to come to my rescue, Devon Atwell. He is quite a cutey. Tall, built, but apperently really quiet mostly. Total gentleman. He knows how to save a girl. He is friends with Kia apperently and can talk when prompted or comfortable, he is also a true romantic. I guess we went to school together when we were little, but as if I am going to remember. He said he thought I dissapeared when I moved to NYC to go to SAB. He said he never saw me again, and apperently he invited me to his 11th birtday that year but I never went because I had already moved to start school at SAB.
Well Devon came to my rescue and pertended to be my date for the night, I totally didn't even know who he was, But I m greatful for Kia and being my total best friend and knowing when to send a guy to my rescue and one that would piss my ex off too. Well he came over and took my hand into his and totally stood up to Jerkoff Matt. He came over kissed my cheek, then turned and was all, "hey tay, are you okay? You looked kind of out of it babe." then he totally turned and I had to play it cool as Matt gave me this look and was all who is this. Needless to say, Devon introduced himself because obviously I couldnt, and if I had to, i would of been screwed. Matt being civil shook Devon's hand and then Devon asked me to dance, we went to the floor to dance, and I totally saw matt stalk away angry. I was all smiles lets saw when Kia and her boyfriend Kyle came up to dance right next to us, and she was all, "Oh by the way Taylor, this is Devon, he knows you from school, friends with Kyle, you don't mind entertaining him do you? While i spend some time with Ky here?" How could I say no, this guy totally just saved me from my ex.
To be continued it next part called... dancing with devon.