May 09, 2005 17:15
Today was ok i guess. Some of u may know I havnt been doin to well. Physically and Mentally. Ive been sick all weekend and workin like a mad man tryin to get this music written in time for friday. Ya u should all come on friday. Even though Im sure ur all planning on coming anyways. You guys cant even understand how im feeling rite now. I miss Natalie so much. Shes not aloud on the phone till tomorrow. And I dont know if she can go to the benifit concert. That makes me sad. Shit now i feel really depressed. Like so bad I could cry. Dammit. I love her so much. Its so hard to explain.all I want to do is have maybe one day where I can just spend the whole day with her. Even if it was supervised I just want to be with her. Like, today I actually got to give her a hug when she had her back pack off. You people might think thats wierd but I love being able to wrap my arms all the way around her without having a backpack in the way. God. K Im gonna. L8er.