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this is where i'm at right now: i dont know what i want to do with my life. no, scratch that. i do know- i want to be a director, an actress. but what about a back up plan. i once heard someone say that if there is anything you could imagine doing-and likeing- better, then you shouldn't be doing it. as in, if i could think of anything that i would like better than directing or acting then i should be doing it. but i cant, i haven't been able to come up with anything else in a long time. thats got to be some sort of a sign, but i know that show buisness is hard, and is hard to break into. but what else is there. i think about owning an Inn sometimes, but yeah right, i would posssibly the least happy Inn-owner this side of Moscow. i dont know. i mean, back up plans are for those of us who dont know that they can make it, i know that i can. i'm tired of pretending to be so bad. i mean, i know i'm not great, but i'm not bad, for a teenager, i'm not bad, and i know i'm not. i'm ready for my 'big break' and i'm not just talking about into hollywood. i dont expect that right now. i just want everyone to see me for who i really am. thats all i'm asking.