Alea jacta est!
Opening night tonight. Was expecting a small audience but really wasn't right small! Show went pretty damn well tbh, lots of energy and I love being onstage, I can forget who I am and be someone else for 2 hours. Or someone who isn't a drunken mookle anyway. Here's to the rest of the run just getting better! Only problem is parking and having to arrive early enough to sort my bloody make up (thank god I've done similar stuff before for facial mutilations!)
ADS meeting was good and useful, I'll stay on the books for a bit and I can get free acupuncture! Wee!
Other than that my brain is a bit of a maelstrom atm. I'm thinking too much, and worst of all; imagining my 'ideal' situations and 'ooh but this might happen' type comments start creeping into my internal diatribe, whilst my base pessimism tries to close them down.
Typical, I start getting a bit sorted and the sorted bit is the land of make believe!
Shit.
Fake edit: is it worse knowing you have dreams that may never be fulfilled (yet with a scintilla of chance/maybe/what if? burning like an ember) or accepting what you have and discounting hope? I seem to have a lot of that in my brain atm. Oh for a ladle and a sieve.
ADS meeting was good and useful, I'll stay on the books for a bit and I can get free acupuncture! Wee!
Other than that my brain is a bit of a maelstrom atm. I'm thinking too much, and worst of all; imagining my 'ideal' situations and 'ooh but this might happen' type comments start creeping into my internal diatribe, whilst my base pessimism tries to close them down.
Typical, I start getting a bit sorted and the sorted bit is the land of make believe!
Shit.
Fake edit: is it worse knowing you have dreams that may never be fulfilled (yet with a scintilla of chance/maybe/what if? burning like an ember) or accepting what you have and discounting hope? I seem to have a lot of that in my brain atm. Oh for a ladle and a sieve.