Why ...

[taylor_wlu]

I hate always bitching to people about the same things. It really makes me upset - ot make me realize how much of a "weakling" I actually am and I really don;t like that. I hate the fact that my roomate who i though was one of my best friends - treat me like a second rate person. I try to be nice - maybee it's because i want to gain his approval for some odd reason. I hate that I always seem to bitch about it but me makes me so mad and upset all the time and I never seem to be able to shake it off. Maybee Chels was right - it' the "fat-kid" syndrom - pretty much who wants to be friends whith someone like me? I hate the fact that he just slaps me around all the time, yells, never says thank you for anything, tells me that it's all my fault! At least with Court he pretended to like me. I just don't understand why i can't just fucking tell THIS TO HIM!! Make him fucking understand why i feel so god dam crappy all the time. I don;t need this - I don;t deserve this. I don;t even understad why i'm even considering living with him next year. Why can't i just throw him to the pile of people who screwed me over?

Maybee i am getting stressed out about school, work and life but to be brutaly honest - i don't need this -I don't deserve to be treated like shit day in and day out. In other news came back from the doctors on thursday and found out that I have something else seriously wrong with me - Fucking GREAT!!

sorry for ppl who had to read that
taylor