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All day yesterday, Ezra cried nonstop.
Natalie spent all day pacing up and down, trying to calm him.
Whilst I started scratching at my wrist, as a nervous habit.
It hurt after awhile, then it went numb.
So I kept at it.
I scratched faster and faster,
Then I watched the blood trickle down my arm as I stared in silence at it.
Completely oblivious to the screaming cries around me.
Dear Natalie
I love you. I do.
But I need to get away for awhile.
I love Ezra with all my heart, but I just can't do the daddy thing right now.
I'm afraid if I stay here, I will become a mess.
I will be a man you don't love anymore, and Ezra will be a child that doesn't love his father.
So I'm going away.
For a day maybe? A week, a month?
This is not the end of you and me. I just need me time and I hope you understand.
Your tiddles.
I watched her sleep for 20 minutes, her brown hair covering her resting eyes. I brushed it away and kissed her softly on the forehead as I mumured "I hope you understand".
I quietly got a suitcases worth of clothes and neccesities together. I took a wedding photo and a picture of Nat, Ezra and I together and placed them in my shirt pocket, close to my heart..
chelle_branch_ said I could come on tour with her for awhile. Not to sing or anything. Just to be there when she gets off stage. To talk to of a nighttime, because God, I know that touring gets so lonely.
Its going to be so good to catch up with her. I miss her friendship so much.
NY here I come.
Natalie spent all day pacing up and down, trying to calm him.
Whilst I started scratching at my wrist, as a nervous habit.
It hurt after awhile, then it went numb.
So I kept at it.
I scratched faster and faster,
Then I watched the blood trickle down my arm as I stared in silence at it.
Completely oblivious to the screaming cries around me.
Dear Natalie
I love you. I do.
But I need to get away for awhile.
I love Ezra with all my heart, but I just can't do the daddy thing right now.
I'm afraid if I stay here, I will become a mess.
I will be a man you don't love anymore, and Ezra will be a child that doesn't love his father.
So I'm going away.
For a day maybe? A week, a month?
This is not the end of you and me. I just need me time and I hope you understand.
Your tiddles.
I watched her sleep for 20 minutes, her brown hair covering her resting eyes. I brushed it away and kissed her softly on the forehead as I mumured "I hope you understand".
I quietly got a suitcases worth of clothes and neccesities together. I took a wedding photo and a picture of Nat, Ezra and I together and placed them in my shirt pocket, close to my heart..
chelle_branch_ said I could come on tour with her for awhile. Not to sing or anything. Just to be there when she gets off stage. To talk to of a nighttime, because God, I know that touring gets so lonely.
Its going to be so good to catch up with her. I miss her friendship so much.
NY here I come.