Stuck...
Finding myself in a situation that I truly would rather have not happened... My boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up. He had decided to move to another state to pursue what he wanted to do... And with my knowing things were probably going to end unless I moved with him... fought in my head back & fourth over the issue. I eventually decided for reasons concerning my daughter, family, and other issues... to stay here in Austin. Then we worked out a plan of how to go about him moving but being a couple until he left... And as time progressed I thought more and more about the fact that this relationship, that I thought was "THE ONE", didn't mean enough to him to figure out a way to go after our dreams together. I know he loves me... but his ambition for certain things that I have no interest in, is just too much. I wish him well in all of his endeavors. I just wish I had known that no longer being with him was truly going to be this hard. I guess we only notice flaws when irritated with someone... and then once they are gone, begin to remember all the great things about them. Alot of my friends feel we were not a good match... they may be right... But whether or not that is true... doesn't change that I was more in love with him than I have ever been with anyone. And then I have to wonder if the problem was him at all.... or if I was just too selfish and blind to see that the problem was indeed me... Hopefully what time I get to see him before he leaves will at least be spent enjoying those things about him, I took for granted.