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Dear Diary,
haha I've always wanted to start an entry that way. Well this seems to be the longest break since i've written. 3 months. What a summer. I can't even begin to completely understand the things i've learned this summer. About what it means to follow God's plan and to really be where you are. Its interesting because re-reading my last few entries i wrote about how i wanted to "be where I am" in the moment. And I do. But I think what's important isn't necessarily being where I am in the moment but being there and finding out why - what God has for me in this place.
It seems that place will soon be Central. I'm moving in tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. I'm probably going to have a pretty large workload but thats ok. Being a student is my job so I should be giving it all my attention.
I also learned alot about Gods peace this summer. What it means to really grieve and be upset and sad and frustrated but despite all those negative feelings I learned how to have peace. That only God can give. I had a rough semester and needed to really grieve and heal from it. God broke me down and convicted me of so many things. The desire to please people around me and bend to their ideas of who I should be. Now I think for the first time I'm beginning to understand who God has intended me to be.
I'm pretty psyched to start my 3 education classes this semester. And acting and communications. I am going to be busy thats for sure. I'm also taking child psych. blah. I hate psychology - luckily its my last psych class. Its started to hit me this week that this is real life. right here right now. Not tomorrow. Instead of planning for the future its time to take the steps to make it happen.
I'm supposed to get a job this semester - hopefully a tour guide. That seems to be the best out of the bunch. And driving seems to be in the future...hmm...
Things are falling into place.
haha I've always wanted to start an entry that way. Well this seems to be the longest break since i've written. 3 months. What a summer. I can't even begin to completely understand the things i've learned this summer. About what it means to follow God's plan and to really be where you are. Its interesting because re-reading my last few entries i wrote about how i wanted to "be where I am" in the moment. And I do. But I think what's important isn't necessarily being where I am in the moment but being there and finding out why - what God has for me in this place.
It seems that place will soon be Central. I'm moving in tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. I'm probably going to have a pretty large workload but thats ok. Being a student is my job so I should be giving it all my attention.
I also learned alot about Gods peace this summer. What it means to really grieve and be upset and sad and frustrated but despite all those negative feelings I learned how to have peace. That only God can give. I had a rough semester and needed to really grieve and heal from it. God broke me down and convicted me of so many things. The desire to please people around me and bend to their ideas of who I should be. Now I think for the first time I'm beginning to understand who God has intended me to be.
I'm pretty psyched to start my 3 education classes this semester. And acting and communications. I am going to be busy thats for sure. I'm also taking child psych. blah. I hate psychology - luckily its my last psych class. Its started to hit me this week that this is real life. right here right now. Not tomorrow. Instead of planning for the future its time to take the steps to make it happen.
I'm supposed to get a job this semester - hopefully a tour guide. That seems to be the best out of the bunch. And driving seems to be in the future...hmm...
Things are falling into place.