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i have come to the conclusion that all my entries are too long and pointless. pretty much all i do is write about my day, and for some reason my incredibly boring and dramatic days turn into this big long essay. well i'm sick of it. no more long entries...
but i must say one thing before i scream. all of my problems are seeming to be worse than ever. it seems that all i do now is wallow in my own self pity and rely on others for some sort of 'support.' i truely don't know what has been wrong with me lately. as some of you know, my home life sucks. yes, i have everything i want and then some, my mom can be half way normal at times, but all the other times she is a complete physco. the only thing that seems to comfort me is my photography and writing. my problems are probably nothing compared to 99.9% of the population of highschool teenagers, yet still i would like someone to be there to talk. i think i truely only have 3 friends who i can tell anything, and non of them live near me. my whole life seems to be turning incredibly black. i'm not sure what to do.. i'm considering ending things with a certain guy that i have been talking with, i have lost nick as a friend I'm doing things that i wouldn't apporve of out of anyone else... and that is just the beginning.
oh, look.. another long entry. wow, i suck
but i must say one thing before i scream. all of my problems are seeming to be worse than ever. it seems that all i do now is wallow in my own self pity and rely on others for some sort of 'support.' i truely don't know what has been wrong with me lately. as some of you know, my home life sucks. yes, i have everything i want and then some, my mom can be half way normal at times, but all the other times she is a complete physco. the only thing that seems to comfort me is my photography and writing. my problems are probably nothing compared to 99.9% of the population of highschool teenagers, yet still i would like someone to be there to talk. i think i truely only have 3 friends who i can tell anything, and non of them live near me. my whole life seems to be turning incredibly black. i'm not sure what to do.. i'm considering ending things with a certain guy that i have been talking with, i have lost nick as a friend I'm doing things that i wouldn't apporve of out of anyone else... and that is just the beginning.
oh, look.. another long entry. wow, i suck