Mess
Hey guys. It was nice seeing everyone at the dance. You all looked amazing, and thank you all for the pity dances you gave me. I appreciated it more than you'll know. I'm not staying though. I just came so that Mitchy would come. So for everyone who was worried that I would be staying and ruining your life even more-- I'm not.
I feel like someone has stabbed a knife into my heart and swished it around, pulled it out, stomped on it and then just threw it back to me.
I just--I know that I seem to fall for like, everyone but I can't help it! Everyone has something amazing about them and they never seem to know it and I just--I tell them that they're amazing in the only way I know how, which is physical. I don't go around fucking everyone but I still get labled the whore.
Well whatever, I don't care. So what if Mason left me again? So what if Kevin thinks that he'll actually stay with him? Let's face it, Mason can't keep it in his pants to save his brother's life. Not that he doesn't try, he just can't.
Even now I promise that he's trying to sleep with Nicole still. But Nooooo, Kevin thinks he's the heaven sent god or whatever. And I can't stand that I'm so in love with Mason that it hurts me this much. I shouldn't be hurt here. I have an amazing boy, carreer...everything you want in life. And I know that all I would have to do is say the word and Mason would be mine again, but he wouldn't stop fooling around with Kevin. Which wouldn't bother me if he didn't really like him.
Whatever though. Everyone has made it perfectly clear that I'm not something to love. I'm just an addiction that people want to get rid of. No matter how much Nick says he didn't mean it like that--he totally did.
I'm such a mess right now. I really needed to stay in Michigan for a few weeks or something. I think I'll go back. I'll just take Mitchy and head back. That's the plan
I feel like someone has stabbed a knife into my heart and swished it around, pulled it out, stomped on it and then just threw it back to me.
I just--I know that I seem to fall for like, everyone but I can't help it! Everyone has something amazing about them and they never seem to know it and I just--I tell them that they're amazing in the only way I know how, which is physical. I don't go around fucking everyone but I still get labled the whore.
Well whatever, I don't care. So what if Mason left me again? So what if Kevin thinks that he'll actually stay with him? Let's face it, Mason can't keep it in his pants to save his brother's life. Not that he doesn't try, he just can't.
Even now I promise that he's trying to sleep with Nicole still. But Nooooo, Kevin thinks he's the heaven sent god or whatever. And I can't stand that I'm so in love with Mason that it hurts me this much. I shouldn't be hurt here. I have an amazing boy, carreer...everything you want in life. And I know that all I would have to do is say the word and Mason would be mine again, but he wouldn't stop fooling around with Kevin. Which wouldn't bother me if he didn't really like him.
Whatever though. Everyone has made it perfectly clear that I'm not something to love. I'm just an addiction that people want to get rid of. No matter how much Nick says he didn't mean it like that--he totally did.
I'm such a mess right now. I really needed to stay in Michigan for a few weeks or something. I think I'll go back. I'll just take Mitchy and head back. That's the plan