What's the point?
I feel kinda scared. I've been wanting to ask Chris to talk to me for awhile now.. Not because I want him back or anything crazy like that, but because I want to clear the air and get to a point where we can at least be civil with each other for our friends. I've been wanting to do this ever since he came back to Colorado, but I've been waiting to ask because I know he doesn't want to talk to me. I'm afraid of what his reponse would be. It's been like three weeks now that I've been comtemplating sending him this text that I've already drafted up and everything, but for some reason I can't bring myself to press send. I expected that life was going to suck after we broke up, but to my own surprise I'm happier without him. I'm happy knowing that the people who are in my life now are in it because they want to be. I feel more appreciated. I've spent more time with my family and my real friends in the past three weeks than I have in months.. I can't blame him for that though. I'm the one who distanced myself from my family and friends.. I'm just afraid that attempting to contact him will bring me down, because that's what he often did.. He brought me down. I feel like he's to immature to talk to me like a man. I just don't know. If I send it, I'm risking getting hurt again when I'm just starting to be happy again. I think for now I'm going to keep putting this off.