wanting to see joe
being in oxford is very odd. i saw matt tonight for the first time, this was something that i was worried about. i knew that it was going to be hard but i didn't know how i'd feel about it. it was so werid seing him, but kinda good at the same time. he was really nice and he told me he was glad that we could still be friends. i miss joe, it's so hard being away from him. it's almost been a week, and it just hurts. i haven't even been able to talk to him on the phone and so that makes it even worse. and then i fucked up and hung up on him tonight and that didn't help at all. after i listened to him talk to his friends for almost all of the conversation. oh well. he made it better, although i wish he would have called me back, even if he was yelling at me about hanging up on him.
i really just want to hang out with monica, emma is just so werid now and i never really liked cassie. i wanted to cry last night because she didn't call me. i hated when she does shit like that. but once i got to james' i just started to drink..not the best idea but oh well. that helped that and winning beer pong!!! :) but once i drank a bit it felt better. bev was there too and that was awesome, it was just like the old time. i haven't drank with her in forever. she's so funny and she made me feel good because she was like taylor you are the best. i love that! she seemed so happy and monica was funny too. i love drinking with those girls.
my mom is so funny, she really misses me and i don't want to ruin this time i finally have here. i'm trying really hard to make this trip nice, not fight and such. it's funny how much my sisters missed me. i will go and lay on my bed (which is in my sister's room since i dont have a room) and my mom will come in there and tell me to go sit with my sisters. and then gentry will cuddle up on me. it's cute. it makes me sad though, i miss them tons and i hope they know that too. enough of me being sad...i'm off to bed.
i really just want to hang out with monica, emma is just so werid now and i never really liked cassie. i wanted to cry last night because she didn't call me. i hated when she does shit like that. but once i got to james' i just started to drink..not the best idea but oh well. that helped that and winning beer pong!!! :) but once i drank a bit it felt better. bev was there too and that was awesome, it was just like the old time. i haven't drank with her in forever. she's so funny and she made me feel good because she was like taylor you are the best. i love that! she seemed so happy and monica was funny too. i love drinking with those girls.
my mom is so funny, she really misses me and i don't want to ruin this time i finally have here. i'm trying really hard to make this trip nice, not fight and such. it's funny how much my sisters missed me. i will go and lay on my bed (which is in my sister's room since i dont have a room) and my mom will come in there and tell me to go sit with my sisters. and then gentry will cuddle up on me. it's cute. it makes me sad though, i miss them tons and i hope they know that too. enough of me being sad...i'm off to bed.