And this is the short version.
Oh my god. So I was typing up my new journal in word, so that I could spell check and stuff, and it somehow turned into this fucking five page essay on my woes and misery. XD I'll give you guys the short version.
Returning to my summer job that I've had 3 out of the past 4 years. I'm a swim teacher in the program at my old highschool. I LOVE MY JOB. SO SO MUCH. Still trying for a job at Half Price Bookstore too, since the swim program only goes until the end of July. Also, I have no hours the first session (there's 3 two-week sessions each summer) due to me needing several days off. They try to keep the same teachers with the kids for the entire session, because they learn better and it's less stressful. So while the session starts next week, I won't start until the first week of July, and I only get 4 weeks instead of 6. SAD FACE. In anycase, Half Price Books! would like to work there after the swim program is done, in August, and preferably longer, even though I've got a pretty full school schedule too.
Panic! at the Disco concert is next Wednesday. SQUEEEEEEE. So excited. Still going with that friend, the gf never said anything after that initial moment about wanting to go, and I avoided the subject with her because I'm a chickenshit. XD That concert, actually is one of the reasons I can't work yet. The other reason is, on June 27th, I have a jury summons. FML. CURSE YOU, JURY DUTY, CURSE YOU. Hoepfully they won't need me after all, and I can relax. My group is pretty far down the line, so they should fill up before they get to me, but still FFFFUUUUU. Mum's talking about getting more tickets to another Giants game. Hellz yea! OMG THEY HAD THE MOST AWESOME PANTS AT THE GIANTS STORE AT THE PARK THEY WERE WHITE BLACK AND ORANGE ARGYLE PANTS OMG WAAAAAAAAANT.
Parents are frustrating me a bit. They remind me and pester me to apply for work, and when I finally get a job, and they nag at me to apply somewhere else, so that i can get a more full time job and skip out on this one, which I adore and i absolutely HATE the thought of having to go in and tell Boss and Boss#2 "LOLYEA I'M WORKING SOMEWARE ELSE DAT PAYS MORE SO I WON'T BE COMING IN AFTER ALL KTHNXBAI!" And they want me to figure out my college plan, so I finally got that straightened out, and suddenly they're telling me I'm taking too many credits and they don't think I can handle the workload. I mean jesus christ, do they want me to pull my shit together or not? I'm working on it, man! I can't just snap my fingers and have it all perfect and flawless! I don't get it. I finally start to pull myself together and actually be productive and get going somewhere with my life, and instead of being happy and encouraging, they have so far, essentially, just complained that I'm not doing it right, or doing good enough. I'm not incapable of handling this, I'm just a fucking lazyass. I'll get it done, I'm getting it done, and I know how much I can handle, so dude, chiiiiiiiilllll. (also, fyi, reminding me over and over that i need to get a life does not, in fact, help me learn how to get a life).
As for writing stuff, been wrapping up a few short projects, some promptfills and stuff, and getting those posted. Got one more SH story to finish up, and then I'm going to direct my focus back on KKBB stuff, and BWC, and The Wild Hunt. As for that last one, I'm still getting more clear of an idea of what I want to do to film it. and I still think it's going to piss Mr. Self-Proclaimed-Cowriter off to no end, because I am SEIZING BACK CONTROL, MOTHERFUCKER! And I have the hilariously, horrifyingly wonderful feeling that it's going to end up being this thing that, when we have the wrap party and sit down to watch it with the cast and crew, everyone will look at it and be like "WTF was that I don't even..." and I will sit, blissful and mildly embarrassed, caught between being enamoured with my own art and hella self-conscious because no one else gets it.
I'm really hungry man. Fuck. Imma go eat something.
Aren't you glad I didn't put the whole essay in here now? XD
Returning to my summer job that I've had 3 out of the past 4 years. I'm a swim teacher in the program at my old highschool. I LOVE MY JOB. SO SO MUCH. Still trying for a job at Half Price Bookstore too, since the swim program only goes until the end of July. Also, I have no hours the first session (there's 3 two-week sessions each summer) due to me needing several days off. They try to keep the same teachers with the kids for the entire session, because they learn better and it's less stressful. So while the session starts next week, I won't start until the first week of July, and I only get 4 weeks instead of 6. SAD FACE. In anycase, Half Price Books! would like to work there after the swim program is done, in August, and preferably longer, even though I've got a pretty full school schedule too.
Panic! at the Disco concert is next Wednesday. SQUEEEEEEE. So excited. Still going with that friend, the gf never said anything after that initial moment about wanting to go, and I avoided the subject with her because I'm a chickenshit. XD That concert, actually is one of the reasons I can't work yet. The other reason is, on June 27th, I have a jury summons. FML. CURSE YOU, JURY DUTY, CURSE YOU. Hoepfully they won't need me after all, and I can relax. My group is pretty far down the line, so they should fill up before they get to me, but still FFFFUUUUU. Mum's talking about getting more tickets to another Giants game. Hellz yea! OMG THEY HAD THE MOST AWESOME PANTS AT THE GIANTS STORE AT THE PARK THEY WERE WHITE BLACK AND ORANGE ARGYLE PANTS OMG WAAAAAAAAANT.
Parents are frustrating me a bit. They remind me and pester me to apply for work, and when I finally get a job, and they nag at me to apply somewhere else, so that i can get a more full time job and skip out on this one, which I adore and i absolutely HATE the thought of having to go in and tell Boss and Boss#2 "LOLYEA I'M WORKING SOMEWARE ELSE DAT PAYS MORE SO I WON'T BE COMING IN AFTER ALL KTHNXBAI!" And they want me to figure out my college plan, so I finally got that straightened out, and suddenly they're telling me I'm taking too many credits and they don't think I can handle the workload. I mean jesus christ, do they want me to pull my shit together or not? I'm working on it, man! I can't just snap my fingers and have it all perfect and flawless! I don't get it. I finally start to pull myself together and actually be productive and get going somewhere with my life, and instead of being happy and encouraging, they have so far, essentially, just complained that I'm not doing it right, or doing good enough. I'm not incapable of handling this, I'm just a fucking lazyass. I'll get it done, I'm getting it done, and I know how much I can handle, so dude, chiiiiiiiilllll. (also, fyi, reminding me over and over that i need to get a life does not, in fact, help me learn how to get a life).
As for writing stuff, been wrapping up a few short projects, some promptfills and stuff, and getting those posted. Got one more SH story to finish up, and then I'm going to direct my focus back on KKBB stuff, and BWC, and The Wild Hunt. As for that last one, I'm still getting more clear of an idea of what I want to do to film it. and I still think it's going to piss Mr. Self-Proclaimed-Cowriter off to no end, because I am SEIZING BACK CONTROL, MOTHERFUCKER! And I have the hilariously, horrifyingly wonderful feeling that it's going to end up being this thing that, when we have the wrap party and sit down to watch it with the cast and crew, everyone will look at it and be like "WTF was that I don't even..." and I will sit, blissful and mildly embarrassed, caught between being enamoured with my own art and hella self-conscious because no one else gets it.
I'm really hungry man. Fuck. Imma go eat something.
Aren't you glad I didn't put the whole essay in here now? XD