grrr...
this computer ate my super long post. die. not cool. it took me way too long to write that.
well. last night was absoulutly wonderful. i was. just. im not sure. everything just. clicked.
but.
i am going to stop indulging myself so often. by so often i mean im quiting for a bit. then. maybe just maybe starting agian. but i need to gain some self control. i need to be able to regulate how much shit i put in this body. or i just need to give it up. because i dont want to be like that.
on a lighter note.
i talked to my brother last night. like acctually talked. not talked but well had a conversation. a real one. i havent done that in so long. and it was good. i didnt will liked cars so much. but he does and i feel more like a big brother. that sounds lame.
but
last night was wonderful
oh my gosh.
petals were falling from the trees and i thought it was snowing
and i was driving with miss calder. and. i cant put the feeling into words. but it just clicked.
and everything is right in the world.
and.
i was driving down riverside. and. i was speeding taking calder home. then. a car. going much faster than i. i was going 65. passed me. going very fast. and i followed him. going very fast. (much too fast) suddenly. a cop. did a very fast u-turn and made a car that was not mine very unhappy. but. i didnt pull it over at first. it just followed it.
at the time it reminded me of one of my cats playing with my half dead gerbil (ironicly named cat)
and he pulled him over. and he got a ticket. and i did not. wow. i should stop speeding so often.
and i should hang out with calder tonight. the end.
well. last night was absoulutly wonderful. i was. just. im not sure. everything just. clicked.
but.
i am going to stop indulging myself so often. by so often i mean im quiting for a bit. then. maybe just maybe starting agian. but i need to gain some self control. i need to be able to regulate how much shit i put in this body. or i just need to give it up. because i dont want to be like that.
on a lighter note.
i talked to my brother last night. like acctually talked. not talked but well had a conversation. a real one. i havent done that in so long. and it was good. i didnt will liked cars so much. but he does and i feel more like a big brother. that sounds lame.
but
last night was wonderful
oh my gosh.
petals were falling from the trees and i thought it was snowing
and i was driving with miss calder. and. i cant put the feeling into words. but it just clicked.
and everything is right in the world.
and.
i was driving down riverside. and. i was speeding taking calder home. then. a car. going much faster than i. i was going 65. passed me. going very fast. and i followed him. going very fast. (much too fast) suddenly. a cop. did a very fast u-turn and made a car that was not mine very unhappy. but. i didnt pull it over at first. it just followed it.
at the time it reminded me of one of my cats playing with my half dead gerbil (ironicly named cat)
and he pulled him over. and he got a ticket. and i did not. wow. i should stop speeding so often.
and i should hang out with calder tonight. the end.