ahhhhhhhhhhh
So I have this feeling again of liking someone I shouldn't.
When I was in NY I met a guy and I miss him a lot :[. I know I have to get over it cause its not gonna happen for many reasons like 1 Im not good enough/pretty enough 2 I doubt he likes me and 3 he lives far.
I just can't get him out of my mind and its gonna drive me crazy :[
I haven't talked to him since Ive been back which I guess is his way of saying he didn't wanna stay in contact. He gave me his e mail but whatever. Im used to this by now. I just hate feeling it. I get so jealous of seeing people in happy relationships because Ive never had one. The one I did have went to shit and since then I can't really have a good one. He just made me so happy when I was there. He was the reason I didn't wanna come back but I guess I was just a way to pass the time. I don't get why I'm so mad about this but I am. I can't get over the fact that I'll probably never see him/talk to him ever again. It kills me. I can't deal with it and its not a feeling where I can just brush it off and forget about it. I just don't know what to do anymore :[ When I get over someone someone else comes a long and fucks it up all over again. I didn't go to NY looking for anyone. It just happend. And now I regret it.
Oh well..I just hope it can just pass....but I know it won't.....
When I was in NY I met a guy and I miss him a lot :[. I know I have to get over it cause its not gonna happen for many reasons like 1 Im not good enough/pretty enough 2 I doubt he likes me and 3 he lives far.
I just can't get him out of my mind and its gonna drive me crazy :[
I haven't talked to him since Ive been back which I guess is his way of saying he didn't wanna stay in contact. He gave me his e mail but whatever. Im used to this by now. I just hate feeling it. I get so jealous of seeing people in happy relationships because Ive never had one. The one I did have went to shit and since then I can't really have a good one. He just made me so happy when I was there. He was the reason I didn't wanna come back but I guess I was just a way to pass the time. I don't get why I'm so mad about this but I am. I can't get over the fact that I'll probably never see him/talk to him ever again. It kills me. I can't deal with it and its not a feeling where I can just brush it off and forget about it. I just don't know what to do anymore :[ When I get over someone someone else comes a long and fucks it up all over again. I didn't go to NY looking for anyone. It just happend. And now I regret it.
Oh well..I just hope it can just pass....but I know it won't.....