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Today is Friday, November 9th, 2007.
It's the only November 9th, 2007 I'm ever going to experience.
What have I done with it?
Recently I've been thinking. A lot. I've been pressed to my mental limits of philosophical reasoning, and I'm trying to understand the world. I'm an intellectual with emotional ties I can't understand - a human with a soul undaunted. ... most days. I've come to realize that, with each decision one makes, one changes and becomes a completely new person. Imagine, if you will, a possible world alike in every aspect to our own, up until a point of decision. In this world, I decided to go to Berea College, but in this possible world, I decided to go to community school/find a job, whatever. It is possible that the person I would have been in that world, at this moment, would be completely different than who I am now.
I like who I am.
Granted, I'm too emotional for my own good. I ask too many questions. I redefine myself every morning...
I fake happy a lot.
I can't get romantically attached to people.
I'm an overachiever, a cynic, an optimist,
a child.
I'm too independent for my own good,
I'm afraid of the dark,
I don't like hot chocolate.
I don't want to be a psychologist, I just want to change the world.
I'm good,
I do wrong,
and I'm sorry.
I'm an activist,
an academic,
an artist.
I believe in the possible,
I think whales are smarter than humans,
I take everything in before making a judgment.
I believe.
I love.
I live.
I can't tell you everything I am - I can't tell myself everything I am. I can, however, illuminate on that which I've come from, that which I've experienced, and maybe, perhaps, I can figure out a few of the why's that elude me.
My thoughts, tonight, have ended for the time being. My next post is going to consist of a timeline of all that I've done and experienced (that I can remember) since coming to Berea College. Until then, adieu.
--Edit--
I just remembered I have readers.. It's been a while since I've been in the LJ world.
Don't bother commenting, unless you want -
I'm more or less documenting my life so when I'm, like, 80, I can read this and be all like, "Awww, what a good story..." :)