Powerlessness
I am powerlessness over most aspects of my physical appearance. I can not diet away my broad shoulders and transform into a different human being. I am not in control of outside elements like sickness and natural events in my life that change my body. I cannot control my life by controlling my body. I cannot manage my obsessive thoughts about food and my cravings for junk food. There is no trophy I will win for being ten lbs lighter. My worth as a person does not depend on my ability to be tiny and perfect. I am powerless over white flour and sugar.
I cannot control or choose how much money I will earn by wishing the situation was different. If a job is not a good fit for me, I cannot change it to become one. I do not have control over how people view me, especially interviewers. I cannot change the past by ruminating on things that happened when I was using. I do not have control over who says yes to me. Obsessing about money does not change my financial situation in any way. I do not have control over larger forces at play in the economy like the recession or Wall Street. Ignoring student debt makes everything worse. I am overspending because it offers me immediate gratification because I feel hopeless in the long run.
I cannot control or choose how much money I will earn by wishing the situation was different. If a job is not a good fit for me, I cannot change it to become one. I do not have control over how people view me, especially interviewers. I cannot change the past by ruminating on things that happened when I was using. I do not have control over who says yes to me. Obsessing about money does not change my financial situation in any way. I do not have control over larger forces at play in the economy like the recession or Wall Street. Ignoring student debt makes everything worse. I am overspending because it offers me immediate gratification because I feel hopeless in the long run.