ugh. quitters never prosper

[tawdryhepburn13]

ugh. i will never prosper at eating healthily while i am quitting smoking. that is just gonna be how it is, man. on the upside, i have purchased some dum dums which seem to help the whole oral fixation thing. i hung out with comic boy and had a fun and weird tawdry evening. it went suprisingly well, he was really tender when we first met and touched my hair -DANGER!!! but then we went back to making fun of each other and it got back to more comfortable territory. still haven't heard from the photog. not that focused on boys right now. also i've decided to stop being so forthcoming with my romantic expoits or dreams or what have you IRL because I don't like how it makes people feel like they own a piece of you. I enjoy privacy ... unfortunately I am an extrovert so I have to talk in order to fucking FEEL sometimes. I think I am learning to strike a balance. Today I will
- email Susan (DONE- boo ya)
- get bananas for banana/nutella frozen deliciousness
- buy Calimocho ingredients
- get library card
- clean my room some
-throw some clothes out
- come up with some good meal options for not nast food at work (DONE!!! - the coming up with part anyway)
                        - veggies (green giant microwave meals)
                        - yogurt and fiber mix nuts and granola from duanne read
                        -veggie burgers with carrot sticks and/or grapes
                        - tea in naglene
- 5 ideas for emily - DONE
- research wireless card (you NEED more music) - ok. you  just need to go to staples or some shiz for this. it's too confusing online.