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Dear Journal,
How are you? I guess I've neglected you for quite some time. Perhaps I was too lazy to just update you. I've been like that since two years ago, God knows what hit me. I apologise.
I can't fall into sleep, lately. I've been waking up in the late afternoon, missing breakfast (not mentioning I'm not a breakfast kind of person) and lunch, then I'll be wide awake till late, (like now) and the vicious cycle goes. I fret for my army days if this goes on. Oh well, I was just thinking about my life after secondary school times till now. I realised I'd done nothing, or to say I'd achieved very minimal through these two and a half years. So much for me dreaming to achieve so much. They'd just gone to waste due to my laziness, constant procrastinations, excuses, etc...
Perhaps I just need to want them bad enough. I am not focused enough. I need to find back my true self again, though I've found that inner peace in me. I've been having green eyes on so many people yet I do nothing about it. I feel like such a loser. SO, it's time to piece myself back again. I gotta tell myself "Enough", "I need to do something to stop these bad causes". To get back that standards! I need to set goals now.
How are you? I guess I've neglected you for quite some time. Perhaps I was too lazy to just update you. I've been like that since two years ago, God knows what hit me. I apologise.
I can't fall into sleep, lately. I've been waking up in the late afternoon, missing breakfast (not mentioning I'm not a breakfast kind of person) and lunch, then I'll be wide awake till late, (like now) and the vicious cycle goes. I fret for my army days if this goes on. Oh well, I was just thinking about my life after secondary school times till now. I realised I'd done nothing, or to say I'd achieved very minimal through these two and a half years. So much for me dreaming to achieve so much. They'd just gone to waste due to my laziness, constant procrastinations, excuses, etc...
Perhaps I just need to want them bad enough. I am not focused enough. I need to find back my true self again, though I've found that inner peace in me. I've been having green eyes on so many people yet I do nothing about it. I feel like such a loser. SO, it's time to piece myself back again. I gotta tell myself "Enough", "I need to do something to stop these bad causes". To get back that standards! I need to set goals now.