So I came here today thinking this would be a good thing to read before bedtime, but I was so so wrong! This is not a good thing to read, especially before going to bed, because now my brain is fully active thinking how much I would want this to be canon. Like seriously, this pushes my every button and somehow you managed to find an ending that would be even more painful then what BBC gave us. Why you ask? Here is why: it's because of who Merlin is and what Merlin have faced. Because how tough he is and he withstood his loved ones dying left, right, and in the centre. Because even if Arthur's death was a heavy blow to him, he endured, because he knows that one day Arthur will be back. But imagine now what Arthur would feel? The only person he considers his true friend, who he now knows what he did for him, for his kingdom, that person is now dead at his side and he does not know why. I imagine how he would think at first that Merlin is joking, he would call him stupid, but then he would noticed how the other one does not response and he will grow worried. I think about the pain he would feel when the great dragon would finally tell him about Merlin's sacrifice. Merlin is not the Once and Future king, he is not foretold to came back, and Arthur is not as strong as Merlin. And the knowledge that he gave his life so Arthur may live would haunt him for ever, just like knowing his birth killed his mother did, only more, because even given how much he loved his mother, he didn't know her, and Merlin- So yeah, I enjoyed this fic maybe a tad too much, but hon, I want to read more of your things, I need it like air. And if you ever consider going back to writing angst, I'm your number one fan. -Fen
<3 <3 <3 oh, bb. <3 Ugh. I mean, I am so sorry you came here hoping to find relaxation and I worked you up. :( :( I am glad you enjoyed it and I can definitely see it got the juices running for you as well!
In my mind, Kilgharrah actually goes off and dies as well, so Arthur is truly alone. No Merlin. No Dragon. No Mordred. I mean, he's got Gwen and the other knights, but all ties to the old ways are gone.
Oh god, now you've got me going again. I'll stop.
I did write a longer one below. Maybe you found that too. And a couple years ago I wrote an awful terrible ending fic that is posted on AO3. You can find Mordred's Blood here, because you asked for more of my angst. :( :(
But really, this comment pretty much made my day, except I do not like making people feel sad. Agh, the contradictions!
No, no, it's okay, I love when the things I read makes me think - this gives me the best feeling, like there are things in this world you just can't be indifferent to, you know? :) Does he? Oh, that's so cruel - I love it! :D Poor Arthur, though... I sometimes wonder if those ties to the old ways are not the things that make Arthur the man he is, and if yes - what kind of a man he would be without them? I just finished reading it, it was great too! Thank you for the link :) I'm glad to hear this <3 Haha, well I like angst, so there is that ;)
Ok, that's good then! I just was sorry I kept you awake!
Well, I think Arthur really didn't have any ties to the Old Ways. He was in conflict with them. If he could have embraced them, things would have turned out differently. So cruel.
-Fen
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In my mind, Kilgharrah actually goes off and dies as well, so Arthur is truly alone. No Merlin. No Dragon. No Mordred. I mean, he's got Gwen and the other knights, but all ties to the old ways are gone.
Oh god, now you've got me going again. I'll stop.
I did write a longer one below. Maybe you found that too. And a couple years ago I wrote an awful terrible ending fic that is posted on AO3. You can find Mordred's Blood here, because you asked for more of my angst. :( :(
But really, this comment pretty much made my day, except I do not like making people feel sad. Agh, the contradictions!
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Does he? Oh, that's so cruel - I love it! :D Poor Arthur, though... I sometimes wonder if those ties to the old ways are not the things that make Arthur the man he is, and if yes - what kind of a man he would be without them?
I just finished reading it, it was great too! Thank you for the link :)
I'm glad to hear this <3 Haha, well I like angst, so there is that ;)
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Well, I think Arthur really didn't have any ties to the Old Ways. He was in conflict with them. If he could have embraced them, things would have turned out differently. So cruel.
Um, yay for making you happy with angst? :D
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