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Lot going on in my head. compounded by the pain in my leg. helps keep my focus off the other pain.
Something's wrong. Not sure what. could try and diagnose myself. not physically, or maybe physically at the root but manifesting itself psychologically. I just feel broken. feelings based on long term perceptions of behavioral patterns. behavior that doesn't lead me to be happy. or i am happy but it won't last. nothing really seems to matter. everything just fades to gray. i can't seem to hold on to the color.
I have no one to talk too. which isn't to say that there aren't people in my life who are willing to listen. Just know one who I feel like would understand. I don't even understand.
fuck
Something's wrong. Not sure what. could try and diagnose myself. not physically, or maybe physically at the root but manifesting itself psychologically. I just feel broken. feelings based on long term perceptions of behavioral patterns. behavior that doesn't lead me to be happy. or i am happy but it won't last. nothing really seems to matter. everything just fades to gray. i can't seem to hold on to the color.
I have no one to talk too. which isn't to say that there aren't people in my life who are willing to listen. Just know one who I feel like would understand. I don't even understand.
fuck