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1st off Im not Crazy.... everyone has times that they feel out of control.... right?
Blame it on the Boogie, but this week has been odd.
I started this new job and with everything that's new it's hard not knowing anything.
I know in time it will all fade, but right now in the thick of it ... it sucks.
Part of me is sure this is all in my head.
as if Im making up trouble... well idle hands do the devils work, in that case it's in my head. lol.... I feel like there is a power struggle for control of my life.
where I go, what to do. running a rat race. I dont' even know who I am fighting with, maybe I should just let go and enjoy the ride. ? If we can never attain perfection then what are we going for?
I am scared to stand still.
I am scared to stop then I'll die. Then all the boys in the world will find someone else to love and I'll be alone, broken, old, useless, paralzed with fear of living. So instead I go gfogo go go ..... but for who, Where am I going?
I need to find me again. I need to center.
I need a vacation, I could find myself in Peru.... :) is it June yet?
ok Im done with my rant, but expect more from me on this .... LJ I mean.
Im back, more to work on more to say... for now good day.
TC --peace
Blame it on the Boogie, but this week has been odd.
I started this new job and with everything that's new it's hard not knowing anything.
I know in time it will all fade, but right now in the thick of it ... it sucks.
Part of me is sure this is all in my head.
as if Im making up trouble... well idle hands do the devils work, in that case it's in my head. lol.... I feel like there is a power struggle for control of my life.
where I go, what to do. running a rat race. I dont' even know who I am fighting with, maybe I should just let go and enjoy the ride. ? If we can never attain perfection then what are we going for?
I am scared to stand still.
I am scared to stop then I'll die. Then all the boys in the world will find someone else to love and I'll be alone, broken, old, useless, paralzed with fear of living. So instead I go gfogo go go ..... but for who, Where am I going?
I need to find me again. I need to center.
I need a vacation, I could find myself in Peru.... :) is it June yet?
ok Im done with my rant, but expect more from me on this .... LJ I mean.
Im back, more to work on more to say... for now good day.
TC --peace