[50] To all the girls... I've loved before...
All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire. - Aristotle
Chance Buffy Summers - Hand Railing to the midsection...
Look I was the goofy friend, I know that... everyone knew that... except me. I was taking a chance thinking that maybe one day she'd look to her right... or left depending on the day and go, "Hey, Xander Harris is a good friend, and I think we should take things to the next level."
That was the plan. God it was a sucky plan. It of course didn't pan out, and thankfully she never actually held that against me, even when she was practically begging me to remove her clothing... I knew it was a spell. I stayed steadfast and strong and resisted... despite the fact that it was my chance.
Desire Cordelia Chase - High School Broom Closets
I am not going to lie, I was the Treasurer and Co-Founder of the We Hate Cordelia Fan Club. The occassional meeting complete with cookies and skim milk, and we were set to spend a good chunk of time discussing how horrible Cordelia Chase was.
Then came those do or die situations where you're thrown into the middle of something and there's nothing left to realize except that maybe this could be it. You could get clawed by a demon and the next thing running through your mind is, I am a survivor! It puts things in perspective and it also gets the blood flowing... Well it makes you realize that life is worth living, and when you're in a dark closet with a woman who is undeniably attractive in those risk taking situations? It's going to be a moment where you either seize the day or run away. I seized, boy howdy did I seize, repeatedly.
Nature and Habit Willow Rosenberg - Yellow Crayons and Barbie Dolls
She was my best friend since I can remember. Well of course I remember because she was officially my first "girlfriend" of course I was only 5 and when I stole her Barbie doll... which for the record I was probably checking for educational purposes (even at age five). Of course as the years went by and we grew up into the fine specimens of adults that we were, things changed. Sure Willow ended up in love with a woman in the end of it all, but lets focus on the pre-wake-up to sexuality.
She is my best friend, and I had been pretty blind to her attraction to me, probably because... well I was a guy and generally we don't notice the things right in front of us. Ask me where the butter is in my fridge and I'll tell you I don't have any. Ask Alex and she'll tell you it's behind the milk. Trust me, I am not the observant one here folks. So when it eventually escalated from the friendly hugs to the more than friends situations... it felt natural. Wrong because of the dating other people thing, but it was Willow, and I knew she would always be there for me.
Reason Anya Jenkins - Interlocking Bodies and putting them to good use!
Anya came to me and spun me off my axis, and while that doesn't take much to accomplish it was the methods behind her madness that always got me. Despite all the idiosynchratic mannerisms, she had a reason behind all of it. For all her lack of humanity she was the most logical one out of the group, and even when her logic was flawed... it still managed to make sense.
In more than one way her reasoning eventually made me realize that I loved her. What started off as a logical excuse to have sex, turned into her needing to have the relationship defined by some form of standards. It was putting a label on fooling around, and for the first time I actually wasn't afraid of it. It just made sense, because she had become this reason for me to to be the way I was. I got split in two and seeing my potential wasn't the same as knowing that Anya had believed it all along.
Compulsion Faith Lehane - Adrenaline
I can't take credit for any of this one. At all.
Passion Alex Winchester - Wedding in Vegas 40 Days and Counting
I met her here actually, and I recognized something in her words. A spark of familiarity, a way around the truth that cried out all to clearly that things were not as they seemed. I know that seven years of knowing I was living on a Hellmouth doesn't get me my membership card to Apocalypse Stoppers or anything, but I at least learned a thing or two. I know that if you want to save the world you better care about something that is here and now. Because if you've got that one thing to live for, to strive to see at the end of it all? Then you'll be set. You'll fight tooth and nail to save the day just to make sure that the one thing worth saving has a place to sleep at the end of the night.
Now... I'm not saying I go out and save the world these days. I've been there, done that... and not very well most times. Okay once, and I swear even Willow is tired of the crayon story. In all fariness though, I at least know that sort of passion. I fought beside it for seven years, and I know the dedication it takes to put a lot more than just life on the line.
I see it in her, that same raw energy that pushes her to stop the evil in it's tracks, regardless of the risk because she's learned that when it comes down to it all you've got is each other.
Chance Buffy Summers - Hand Railing to the midsection...
Look I was the goofy friend, I know that... everyone knew that... except me. I was taking a chance thinking that maybe one day she'd look to her right... or left depending on the day and go, "Hey, Xander Harris is a good friend, and I think we should take things to the next level."
That was the plan. God it was a sucky plan. It of course didn't pan out, and thankfully she never actually held that against me, even when she was practically begging me to remove her clothing... I knew it was a spell. I stayed steadfast and strong and resisted... despite the fact that it was my chance.
Desire Cordelia Chase - High School Broom Closets
I am not going to lie, I was the Treasurer and Co-Founder of the We Hate Cordelia Fan Club. The occassional meeting complete with cookies and skim milk, and we were set to spend a good chunk of time discussing how horrible Cordelia Chase was.
Then came those do or die situations where you're thrown into the middle of something and there's nothing left to realize except that maybe this could be it. You could get clawed by a demon and the next thing running through your mind is, I am a survivor! It puts things in perspective and it also gets the blood flowing... Well it makes you realize that life is worth living, and when you're in a dark closet with a woman who is undeniably attractive in those risk taking situations? It's going to be a moment where you either seize the day or run away. I seized, boy howdy did I seize, repeatedly.
Nature and Habit Willow Rosenberg - Yellow Crayons and Barbie Dolls
She was my best friend since I can remember. Well of course I remember because she was officially my first "girlfriend" of course I was only 5 and when I stole her Barbie doll... which for the record I was probably checking for educational purposes (even at age five). Of course as the years went by and we grew up into the fine specimens of adults that we were, things changed. Sure Willow ended up in love with a woman in the end of it all, but lets focus on the pre-wake-up to sexuality.
She is my best friend, and I had been pretty blind to her attraction to me, probably because... well I was a guy and generally we don't notice the things right in front of us. Ask me where the butter is in my fridge and I'll tell you I don't have any. Ask Alex and she'll tell you it's behind the milk. Trust me, I am not the observant one here folks. So when it eventually escalated from the friendly hugs to the more than friends situations... it felt natural. Wrong because of the dating other people thing, but it was Willow, and I knew she would always be there for me.
Reason Anya Jenkins - Interlocking Bodies and putting them to good use!
Anya came to me and spun me off my axis, and while that doesn't take much to accomplish it was the methods behind her madness that always got me. Despite all the idiosynchratic mannerisms, she had a reason behind all of it. For all her lack of humanity she was the most logical one out of the group, and even when her logic was flawed... it still managed to make sense.
In more than one way her reasoning eventually made me realize that I loved her. What started off as a logical excuse to have sex, turned into her needing to have the relationship defined by some form of standards. It was putting a label on fooling around, and for the first time I actually wasn't afraid of it. It just made sense, because she had become this reason for me to to be the way I was. I got split in two and seeing my potential wasn't the same as knowing that Anya had believed it all along.
Compulsion Faith Lehane - Adrenaline
I can't take credit for any of this one. At all.
Passion Alex Winchester - Wedding in Vegas 40 Days and Counting
I met her here actually, and I recognized something in her words. A spark of familiarity, a way around the truth that cried out all to clearly that things were not as they seemed. I know that seven years of knowing I was living on a Hellmouth doesn't get me my membership card to Apocalypse Stoppers or anything, but I at least learned a thing or two. I know that if you want to save the world you better care about something that is here and now. Because if you've got that one thing to live for, to strive to see at the end of it all? Then you'll be set. You'll fight tooth and nail to save the day just to make sure that the one thing worth saving has a place to sleep at the end of the night.
Now... I'm not saying I go out and save the world these days. I've been there, done that... and not very well most times. Okay once, and I swear even Willow is tired of the crayon story. In all fariness though, I at least know that sort of passion. I fought beside it for seven years, and I know the dedication it takes to put a lot more than just life on the line.
I see it in her, that same raw energy that pushes her to stop the evil in it's tracks, regardless of the risk because she's learned that when it comes down to it all you've got is each other.