[FM] 43 - Pity.
"Oh it's such a pity." I think I heard that sentence at least a dozen times when I was with Anya, but the truth is that I don't actually think she quite grasped the concept. I mean you would think, Vengeance Demon for all those years would completely understand pity, but there was always some odd way about the context she'd place that phrase into.
Maybe she understood it completely and just liked making my eyebrow do that arch thing. I mean the arch thing coupled with the forehead wrinkles, and I had a real look going on. It worked for Michael Vartan for five seasons, it could work for me too. Anyway, it's all the little things like that, the random phrases that she could just toss into everyday conversations that maybe I miss the most.
Granted I hear a lot of random things still to this day, but there was always something in her tone, or the way she implied that she completely understood something only to later deny ever stating it.
I shouldn't miss it though. Well maybe a bit, but in reality it's been a few years and I've met someone else. I'm happy, and I am pretty sure that Anya would be happy for me. Sure she'd be upset that she wasn't here for my huge get back into shape trend, but she was the reason behind it. I'm sure if she could see me now, she'd be sitting on a chair her ankle bobbing at a pace that was a bit too quick to be just nerves, telling me that it was, "Such a pity that she hadn't been here to watch me crawl out of the hole her death left me in."
Because truthfully, that was Anya.
Maybe she understood it completely and just liked making my eyebrow do that arch thing. I mean the arch thing coupled with the forehead wrinkles, and I had a real look going on. It worked for Michael Vartan for five seasons, it could work for me too. Anyway, it's all the little things like that, the random phrases that she could just toss into everyday conversations that maybe I miss the most.
Granted I hear a lot of random things still to this day, but there was always something in her tone, or the way she implied that she completely understood something only to later deny ever stating it.
I shouldn't miss it though. Well maybe a bit, but in reality it's been a few years and I've met someone else. I'm happy, and I am pretty sure that Anya would be happy for me. Sure she'd be upset that she wasn't here for my huge get back into shape trend, but she was the reason behind it. I'm sure if she could see me now, she'd be sitting on a chair her ankle bobbing at a pace that was a bit too quick to be just nerves, telling me that it was, "Such a pity that she hadn't been here to watch me crawl out of the hole her death left me in."
Because truthfully, that was Anya.