[FM] Heroism
"True heroism is remarkably sober, very undramatic. It is not the urge to surpass all others at whatever cost, but the urge to serve others, at whatever cost." - Arthur Ashe
I haven't been there for them lately. I know that, because I pretty much feel clueless about what is going on in all of their lives. I don't think I've been selfish in any way, I just feel like maybe I've grown out of that phase. Can it even be called a phase though? Isn't that slightly disrespectful to those that can't just let it fade from their life? I mean I'm dating a Slayer, by saying that life was a phase for me? Is that rude?
It's not like it was a phase like parachute pants, or fading my hair from the length at the top to the shaved part near my neck, but a different kind of phase. Maybe I can use that phrase and not feel so bad about it because I wasn't four years old dealing with these sort of things (not that they were either) and when I first was brought into that lifestyle it was not what I had been used to. My Saturdays were spent eating Apple Jacks and watching cartoons... not hanging out in the school library trying to figure out just what a certain demon was after and how to make him go from standing and walking to pile of... whatever on the floor.
We did good though, a lot of good, and it even felt good to do all that good. (That even felt weird to type, bet it was fun to read though!) Making a difference, saving lives, keeping people safe, it was a thing. It was a time.
The thing of it now though, is that even though I'm not on the front lines with them... I'm not out there doing the battles, or fighting the evil... I still stand by them. I still want to be there for them, in that ever famous supportive role. I think that no matter what I'm doing in this life... I'll always be willing to stick by their sides right into the next one. I might not be able to show it all the time, but I really hope they know that if they need me... I'm going to show up.