Taty is Tight Lipped Eh?
Yah...some folks may wonder why I don't got into details about my life and pour my heart out in here like some others do. Well, ya see...in the past I have been really open about my stuff and not had many blocks to doing so, but I have never really discussed the daily goings on of my personal life on here. I have, if you look back at like Dec., mentioned things in cryptic ways, but I don't even really do that anymore. I DO post music to express some emotions, but not as much.
WHY, you ask?
I have noticed that my personal life goes much more smoothly when I keep things close to the breast, so to speak. If I were the other parties involved in my home life, my romantic life and my friendships...I would prefer the details stay private.
I have a filter set up on here that is called "emotional private" for when I am so upset or full of some feeling or another that I'll burst if I don't get it out, but I have not used that much. and...if I do that I usually delete it later. There are only 5 people who can see that filter...and I am going to cut that to just three.
I have also found that I have someone in my life who has become a true confidant and when I am comfortable opening up about things I do it with that person. That is a blessing and I feel that it is important to have that person know that I trust them and them alone with some of my stuff.
I have not always been this way...but, I tend to be a little suspicious of people's honesty when they say that what I tell them is just between us. I have found that, in the past, I have completely trusted folks who have betrayed my trust to the one person I did not want to know an item or to people who do not have my best interest at heart. I just can't do that anymore.
I have closed my inner circle pretty tightly around me and some folks have just naturally drifted out of it. And...I am ok with that.
I am always open to creating knew and fully honest lasting friendships and think that some "new" readers of my journal and I have enough of a connection that I can see that occurring between us. :)
Now, what do I do when I want to talk to someone about the one person I tell all my other things to? Well, that is a really good question that I struggle with. I only have one person I can talk to about my deepest most sacred emotions and she is a sister of my soul. Now that I think of it, there are two...but one of them is SO hard to get in touch with. Yet...our spirits talk often.
I am grateful for my soul sisters and for the gift of my confidant who I have mentioned. For most of my life the problem has been that I am the one who listens, the one who has wisdom and advice to offer...but few listen back with the same compassion. That dynamic can be a huge burden and can ...at times...make a person feel under-appreciated and taken for granted. I can truly say that I get back what I give and MUCH MORE from these three. It pleases me to be able to be there for them as well.
The 4th person in my life who I can "say anything" to without judgment is my mother...she is an amazing woman. Only thing is, as a Capricorn, she doesn't "deal" well with my emotional spillage. And that's ok with me. She is the person I go to when I need someone to be practical and even pragmatic about the situation. Goodness knows I need that too.
ok...I think I have purged what I needed to on this topic. I need to go write in two of my paper journals now.
WHY, you ask?
I have noticed that my personal life goes much more smoothly when I keep things close to the breast, so to speak. If I were the other parties involved in my home life, my romantic life and my friendships...I would prefer the details stay private.
I have a filter set up on here that is called "emotional private" for when I am so upset or full of some feeling or another that I'll burst if I don't get it out, but I have not used that much. and...if I do that I usually delete it later. There are only 5 people who can see that filter...and I am going to cut that to just three.
I have also found that I have someone in my life who has become a true confidant and when I am comfortable opening up about things I do it with that person. That is a blessing and I feel that it is important to have that person know that I trust them and them alone with some of my stuff.
I have not always been this way...but, I tend to be a little suspicious of people's honesty when they say that what I tell them is just between us. I have found that, in the past, I have completely trusted folks who have betrayed my trust to the one person I did not want to know an item or to people who do not have my best interest at heart. I just can't do that anymore.
I have closed my inner circle pretty tightly around me and some folks have just naturally drifted out of it. And...I am ok with that.
I am always open to creating knew and fully honest lasting friendships and think that some "new" readers of my journal and I have enough of a connection that I can see that occurring between us. :)
Now, what do I do when I want to talk to someone about the one person I tell all my other things to? Well, that is a really good question that I struggle with. I only have one person I can talk to about my deepest most sacred emotions and she is a sister of my soul. Now that I think of it, there are two...but one of them is SO hard to get in touch with. Yet...our spirits talk often.
I am grateful for my soul sisters and for the gift of my confidant who I have mentioned. For most of my life the problem has been that I am the one who listens, the one who has wisdom and advice to offer...but few listen back with the same compassion. That dynamic can be a huge burden and can ...at times...make a person feel under-appreciated and taken for granted. I can truly say that I get back what I give and MUCH MORE from these three. It pleases me to be able to be there for them as well.
The 4th person in my life who I can "say anything" to without judgment is my mother...she is an amazing woman. Only thing is, as a Capricorn, she doesn't "deal" well with my emotional spillage. And that's ok with me. She is the person I go to when I need someone to be practical and even pragmatic about the situation. Goodness knows I need that too.
ok...I think I have purged what I needed to on this topic. I need to go write in two of my paper journals now.