Please forget the words that I just blurted out

Aug 02, 2008 13:27

Ugh, my head...Hey Rukia, ya doin' alright? Sorry about last night Kiddo. I'll make it up to ya.

You name it, we'll do it alright?

(Private to Byakuya)
Jeeze, I uh, I don't even know where to start really. I mean, last night...I fucked up, I know it and I know you don't want to see me right now but I can't just let this go. I need to tell ya this man and I'd really like ya to just hear me out alright?

I guess...there's just no other way to say it, an' I know they're just words an'all but, I'm sorry. I'm really, really sorry.

Maybe it was the alcohol talkin', I don't know, I don't want to make excuses. All I know is I can't figure out what the hell I was thinking. I was an ass, plain and simple and what I said was...cold and uncalled-for.

I don't honestly know what got into me and I didn't mean what I said. I realize now that you've really come a long way since ya lost Hisana. I mean, I know it ain't easy losin' someone ya love and I shouldn't have been such a dick about it. Losin' a wife an' losin' a mom or a dad is somethin' completely different and I understand it takes more time to recover from losin' a piece of your soul. And I know ya love your sister and don't want anything to happen to her. You're just lookin' out for her cause she's all ya got.

Jeeze, I just don't know what to say to make it up to ya, I feel terrible. An' I know words just ain't gonna cut it so... whenever ya feel like seein' me again, I want to make it up to ya... somehow.

I...guess I'm not asking ya to forgive me. I can't blame ya if ya don't. Honestly I shoulda got more than just a kick to the sternum.

But don't lock yourself away from Rukia at least. She didn't want to upset you and worry you. She needs ya, and I don't plan on comin' around till your good and ready to see me.
(Private stuff end.)

That tears it. I'm gonna stop drinkin'.

i'll make it up to ya, need to quit drinkin, feel like shit, apologizing, byakuya, rukia

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