i will never leave!!!!
the stress is jsut so much. but i'm trying, i really am, to calm everything down, and i hope that i will, wait. i KNOW i will, or else i'll die. honestly.
rehersal today was a lot of fun. I got to play Leah for 5 minutes (I really hope that Shelly feels a lot better, she looked so sick today. :( )and then i played around with Raquel, making possessed sounds and showing David Willie what a yiddish porn girl would look like ( *glimpse of 1-inch of leg above boot* OH MY GOODNESS!) everyone should ocme and see it, it will be interesting to watch at least.
i think saturday we're going ot geogretown or something to get the hair extentions..... long hair, yay!i'm going ot look like such a dumbass..... but since that's osmewhat my character, it will work. :) it's a lot of fun to play, so i have nothing to complain about.
oh, and the never ending question has come up again..... **should i just live at my father's full time??** i really hate it when she brings this all up, but at the same time it's always the question of would it just as well be easier for me..... but i know i'd go insain living iwth my fahter all the time. i know i would. i like having both houses to spend my time at and to travel to and from. i'm so used to it that it would be really odd for me to stay fulltime at one place.
i need to finish this project for tomarrow..... then wake up early and turn it in. fun fun.
DESCRIBE YOUR:
Wallet: a small tin case that sides open to the side. i think it used to hold mints.
hairbrush: big brown flat brush and asmall curling brush.
jewelry worn daily: faery earrings i got from jake and a pendent i usually wear.
pillow cover: more of them are white, but i have two german feather pillows that have absract designs all over them.
blanket: A quilt that my mother made for me, and at my father's i ahve a green and blue cover, and a royal red blanket to keep me warm.
coffee cup: it says "everyone is born right-handed..... but only the greatest overcome it!"
sunglasses: small purple glassed ones, and then there's the ones that look like ral glasses that bailey always steals
underwear: blue shorts with lace.
boots: hehe, the dybbuk boots from bailey's mother and my black kneehighs that i wore on holloween.
handbag: black shoulder bag that i got from HFS, YEARS ago..... with the bottons "i am loved", "bitch", and the one of drew
favorite shirt: my sandman t-shirts, drew's old sweater that i now own, and my green shoulder shirt
cologne/perfume: i have my "mercedes" scent body sprays thati love..... as far as cologne, i LOVE whatever it is that drew wears, i don't know what it's called.
what you are wearing now: jeans, purple top, my red hat and scarf, and drew's hoodie that i kept.
hair: blonde and in briads..... **does anyone know where to get good extentions??**
makeup: mascara, lip gloss
in my head: i'm thinking about the whole possession thing in the dybbuk, fucking science fair (goddammit).
wishing: there was something really good to eat.
talking to: nobody.
eating: one of those healthy TV dinner things, chicken and noddles.
fetishes: i have no clue.....
if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: ohohoh, the asshole with the canera, i forget his name..... but honestly there's no one that i would really wnat to see dead, besides him.
person you wish you could see right now: uhh..... lots of people that i haven't been able to see in such a long time. but everyone i really need to see, i'm lucky in that i have.
what's next to you: my fahter's desk, my cat Set, project board.
some of your favorite movies: i don't have a favorite.....
something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: finishing Dybbuk and getting stress out of my life.
something that you are deathly afraid of: people touching my neck, Bloddy Mary, needles
do you like candles?: yes yes yes, love them.
do you like hot wax?: yes, i love to play with it and to watch it drip off candles, it's beautiful.
do you like incense?: yes, i have TONS of them..... my fahter doesn't like the smell.
do you like the taste of blood?: i like the saltyness, but not many people will say that they honestly like the taste of blood, people would think they were creepy.
do you believe in love?: yes
do you believe in soul mates?: yes..... but mostly in the sence of a soul mate not as a lover, but a soul mate as a friend that you join so well.
do you believe in love at first sight?: no, it takes time to truely love a person
do you believe in forgiveness?: yes
who is your worst enemy?: i have my "enemy", but she lives far away and i don't take to her anymore, besides that, no one.
if you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?: i always though that i would love to train a tiger, from when he/she was a baby.....
what are five cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?: New York, Landstul Germany, Frace by my grandparents, anywehere in London, there are lots of places that i would love to go to.
what are some of your favorite pig out foods?: nutella, beef fried rice, cheese.
what's something that you wish people would understand?: i don't know, there's lots of things.
what's something you wish you could understand better?: some of hte people around me.
five details about your appearance right now
[x] messy briads
[x] oversized shirt
[x] bright scarf
[x] tired eyes
[x] glossy lips
five things you did today
[x] broke down
[x] froze my fingers
[x] acting scared in rehersal
[x] acted possessed in rehersal
[x] hugged drew while he did his usually ruiing-around-in-boxers (and a yiddish hat) thing
five groups/artists you listened to today
[x] Jeff Buckley
[x] Yiddish music
[x] us singing bad lines from gypsy (augh)
[x] ........
[x] more Jeff Buckley
five things that make you happy
[x] drew'sfunny jokes
[x] playing animal crossing with my mother
[x] having adam tell me that he wants to write a story about the wings theory
[x] laying in a warm bed
[x] dancing in the rain
five things that disgust you
[x] racal jokes in theatre..... jesus.
[x] bad liers
[x] brussel sprouts
[x] chewing on wool
[x] .....
five things you can't live without
[x] my neil gaiman books
[x] the sister's sandman
[x] my faeries
[x] glowbunny
[x] my swingsets memories
five things you'll do when you complete this
[x] finish science project
[x] finish english essay
[x] write journal entry
[x] read my books
[x] go to sleep
five things you feel right now
[x] burned out
[x] numb hands
[x] tired
[x] in pain (god my back)
[x] hopeful
LAST PERSON WHO..
. Slept in your bed: glowbunny
. Saw you cry: 66 morning traffic people this morning.
. Made you cry: myself.
. Spent the night at your house: sarah i guess..... other poepel ahven't actually spent the night.
. You shared a drink with: my mother last night.
. You went to the movies with: peter, elif, and adam
. You went to the mall with: my sister sarah i think.
. Yelled at you: my mother.
. Sent you an e-mail: myself, sending science info from school.
. Said they were going to kill you: i don't know..... sara p.?? :)
HAVE YOU EVER..
. Said "I love you" and meant it? yes
. Gotten in a fight w/ your dog/cat/bird/fish,etc.? just now. Set was meowing for attention and he started knocking off things to get to me. i meow-yelled at him.
. Been to New York? it's been a long time, i really want ot go back.
. Been to Florida? christmas with the FUN FUN family times.
. California? not since i went to go to Greg's wedding.
. Hawaii? no, but i want to go becuase that's where my mother was born.
. Mexico? no
. China? no, but i want to.
. Canada? yes, ages ago.
. Danced naked? ya, but not infront of other people, i don't think.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? yes
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? yes, but not a lot
. Wish you were the opposite sex? nope, i'm happy being female
. Had an imaginary friend? yes, i've had multiple, though i never thought that where were imaginary.
This or That..
. Red or blue? red
. Spring or fall? fall
. Santa or Rudolph? rudolph
. Math or English? math
. What was the last food you ate? that TV dinner
. Are you bored? yes
. How many buddies are on? 21, but i'm not talking to any of them
. Last movie you saw? Big Fish
. Last noise you heard? dryer starting up
. Last time you went out of the state: does croissing over other states to get to chincotique count?? then yes.
. Do you have a crush on someone? uhhh, i think we all would relize who the crush would be.
. Do they know? jesus i hope so, or these two years would have been really confusing
. What's his/her name? i'll let you think about that one..... (hint: i wear all his f-ing clothes!! SWINGSETS!)
. What do you think of ouija boards? i have one, they're interesting.
. What book are you reading now? rereading American Gods by NEIL GAIMAN!!
. What's on your mouse pad? it's one of those ones that has a big red ball for moving the cursor, i hate it.
. Favourite magazine? i think Debby's People magazines and such are funny to read when i'm bored.
. Worst feeling in the world? broken heart feeling.
. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? about what i forgot to do the night beofre.
. How many rings before you answer? 2 at my mothers so i can check the id.
. Future daughter's name? i don't know, not that i'm planning to have kids.
. Future son's name? same as above.
. Chocolate or vanilla? both mixed together.
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? only Glowbunny, i always keep her with my at my fahter's.
. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? interior design, or teaching drama, don't know why.
. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? lefty
. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? mostly, except for the "Y" key, i use my left hand for that one.
. What's under your bed? Aold books, mostly about ghosts.
. Favourite sport to watch? ......
. Your Hair Colour: blonde.
. Eye Colour: Green.
. Height Currently: 5' 7" i think......
. Glasses/contacts: nope, but i do ahve a pair of purple glitter contacts.
. Current Age: 16
. Siblings: three half brothers; Connor(4), Fletcher(3), and Spencer(1)..... and then there's Will who lives in Germany(?) i think, but i'm not allowed to count him.
. Location: Virginia.
. College Plans: grrrr......
. Any Piercings: one in each ear.
. Best Friends: i have lots of friends, no one is better then the other.
. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: drew
. Hobbies: decorating, acting, watching movies
. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: my red jeep, poor baby.
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: either it's really early or late, hardly ever right on time.
. Do You Like Being Around People: yes, but sometimes it's good to get away from everyone.
STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yes
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person you always go after: i don't think so.... but it seems like a lot of musicians.
. Do You Have A Job: no, i need one
. Are You Lonely Right Now: no, i like it by myself.
. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: naw, i'm sure that i will at some point.
. Do You Want To Get Married: sure, if it's with the right person.
. Do You Want Kids: at the moment, no
FAVORITE
. Room In house: my own, the living room
. Type of music: lots of stuff
. Song: nope, i like certain songs for certain moods
. Memory: the swingset memories, my "wings" memories, laying on the hill and seeing faeries.
. Day Of The Week: i like saturdays
. Color: the blue-purple-red spectrum
. perfume or colonge: my body sprays
. Flower: roses
. Month: may
. Season: fall
. Location for dates: just hanging out at a house
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
. Cried: yes... in the car this morning. SO STRESSED OUT!
. Bought Something: a soda, wait, two sodas and a candy of some sort. oh, and gas. Gotten Sick: yes... yesterday was really bad, sorry Emily.
. Sang: yes, to Jeff Buckley in my car..... and bad parts of gypsy
. Said I Love You: yes
. Met Someone New: not really
. Moved On: from being stressed, i'm trying.
. Talked To Someone: yes
. Had A Serious Talk: yes
. Missed Someone: ya, friends that aren't with me right now
. Hugged Someone: yes..... (drew in boxers in the dressing room.... god those boys)
. Kissed Someone: yes
. Fought With Your Parents: yes
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: a friend, yes
. Had a lot of sleep: no, not at all
. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: hehe, yes.
rehersal today was a lot of fun. I got to play Leah for 5 minutes (I really hope that Shelly feels a lot better, she looked so sick today. :( )and then i played around with Raquel, making possessed sounds and showing David Willie what a yiddish porn girl would look like ( *glimpse of 1-inch of leg above boot* OH MY GOODNESS!) everyone should ocme and see it, it will be interesting to watch at least.
i think saturday we're going ot geogretown or something to get the hair extentions..... long hair, yay!i'm going ot look like such a dumbass..... but since that's osmewhat my character, it will work. :) it's a lot of fun to play, so i have nothing to complain about.
oh, and the never ending question has come up again..... **should i just live at my father's full time??** i really hate it when she brings this all up, but at the same time it's always the question of would it just as well be easier for me..... but i know i'd go insain living iwth my fahter all the time. i know i would. i like having both houses to spend my time at and to travel to and from. i'm so used to it that it would be really odd for me to stay fulltime at one place.
i need to finish this project for tomarrow..... then wake up early and turn it in. fun fun.
DESCRIBE YOUR:
Wallet: a small tin case that sides open to the side. i think it used to hold mints.
hairbrush: big brown flat brush and asmall curling brush.
jewelry worn daily: faery earrings i got from jake and a pendent i usually wear.
pillow cover: more of them are white, but i have two german feather pillows that have absract designs all over them.
blanket: A quilt that my mother made for me, and at my father's i ahve a green and blue cover, and a royal red blanket to keep me warm.
coffee cup: it says "everyone is born right-handed..... but only the greatest overcome it!"
sunglasses: small purple glassed ones, and then there's the ones that look like ral glasses that bailey always steals
underwear: blue shorts with lace.
boots: hehe, the dybbuk boots from bailey's mother and my black kneehighs that i wore on holloween.
handbag: black shoulder bag that i got from HFS, YEARS ago..... with the bottons "i am loved", "bitch", and the one of drew
favorite shirt: my sandman t-shirts, drew's old sweater that i now own, and my green shoulder shirt
cologne/perfume: i have my "mercedes" scent body sprays thati love..... as far as cologne, i LOVE whatever it is that drew wears, i don't know what it's called.
what you are wearing now: jeans, purple top, my red hat and scarf, and drew's hoodie that i kept.
hair: blonde and in briads..... **does anyone know where to get good extentions??**
makeup: mascara, lip gloss
in my head: i'm thinking about the whole possession thing in the dybbuk, fucking science fair (goddammit).
wishing: there was something really good to eat.
talking to: nobody.
eating: one of those healthy TV dinner things, chicken and noddles.
fetishes: i have no clue.....
if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: ohohoh, the asshole with the canera, i forget his name..... but honestly there's no one that i would really wnat to see dead, besides him.
person you wish you could see right now: uhh..... lots of people that i haven't been able to see in such a long time. but everyone i really need to see, i'm lucky in that i have.
what's next to you: my fahter's desk, my cat Set, project board.
some of your favorite movies: i don't have a favorite.....
something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: finishing Dybbuk and getting stress out of my life.
something that you are deathly afraid of: people touching my neck, Bloddy Mary, needles
do you like candles?: yes yes yes, love them.
do you like hot wax?: yes, i love to play with it and to watch it drip off candles, it's beautiful.
do you like incense?: yes, i have TONS of them..... my fahter doesn't like the smell.
do you like the taste of blood?: i like the saltyness, but not many people will say that they honestly like the taste of blood, people would think they were creepy.
do you believe in love?: yes
do you believe in soul mates?: yes..... but mostly in the sence of a soul mate not as a lover, but a soul mate as a friend that you join so well.
do you believe in love at first sight?: no, it takes time to truely love a person
do you believe in forgiveness?: yes
who is your worst enemy?: i have my "enemy", but she lives far away and i don't take to her anymore, besides that, no one.
if you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?: i always though that i would love to train a tiger, from when he/she was a baby.....
what are five cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?: New York, Landstul Germany, Frace by my grandparents, anywehere in London, there are lots of places that i would love to go to.
what are some of your favorite pig out foods?: nutella, beef fried rice, cheese.
what's something that you wish people would understand?: i don't know, there's lots of things.
what's something you wish you could understand better?: some of hte people around me.
five details about your appearance right now
[x] messy briads
[x] oversized shirt
[x] bright scarf
[x] tired eyes
[x] glossy lips
five things you did today
[x] broke down
[x] froze my fingers
[x] acting scared in rehersal
[x] acted possessed in rehersal
[x] hugged drew while he did his usually ruiing-around-in-boxers (and a yiddish hat) thing
five groups/artists you listened to today
[x] Jeff Buckley
[x] Yiddish music
[x] us singing bad lines from gypsy (augh)
[x] ........
[x] more Jeff Buckley
five things that make you happy
[x] drew'sfunny jokes
[x] playing animal crossing with my mother
[x] having adam tell me that he wants to write a story about the wings theory
[x] laying in a warm bed
[x] dancing in the rain
five things that disgust you
[x] racal jokes in theatre..... jesus.
[x] bad liers
[x] brussel sprouts
[x] chewing on wool
[x] .....
five things you can't live without
[x] my neil gaiman books
[x] the sister's sandman
[x] my faeries
[x] glowbunny
[x] my swingsets memories
five things you'll do when you complete this
[x] finish science project
[x] finish english essay
[x] write journal entry
[x] read my books
[x] go to sleep
five things you feel right now
[x] burned out
[x] numb hands
[x] tired
[x] in pain (god my back)
[x] hopeful
LAST PERSON WHO..
. Slept in your bed: glowbunny
. Saw you cry: 66 morning traffic people this morning.
. Made you cry: myself.
. Spent the night at your house: sarah i guess..... other poepel ahven't actually spent the night.
. You shared a drink with: my mother last night.
. You went to the movies with: peter, elif, and adam
. You went to the mall with: my sister sarah i think.
. Yelled at you: my mother.
. Sent you an e-mail: myself, sending science info from school.
. Said they were going to kill you: i don't know..... sara p.?? :)
HAVE YOU EVER..
. Said "I love you" and meant it? yes
. Gotten in a fight w/ your dog/cat/bird/fish,etc.? just now. Set was meowing for attention and he started knocking off things to get to me. i meow-yelled at him.
. Been to New York? it's been a long time, i really want ot go back.
. Been to Florida? christmas with the FUN FUN family times.
. California? not since i went to go to Greg's wedding.
. Hawaii? no, but i want to go becuase that's where my mother was born.
. Mexico? no
. China? no, but i want to.
. Canada? yes, ages ago.
. Danced naked? ya, but not infront of other people, i don't think.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? yes
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? yes, but not a lot
. Wish you were the opposite sex? nope, i'm happy being female
. Had an imaginary friend? yes, i've had multiple, though i never thought that where were imaginary.
This or That..
. Red or blue? red
. Spring or fall? fall
. Santa or Rudolph? rudolph
. Math or English? math
. What was the last food you ate? that TV dinner
. Are you bored? yes
. How many buddies are on? 21, but i'm not talking to any of them
. Last movie you saw? Big Fish
. Last noise you heard? dryer starting up
. Last time you went out of the state: does croissing over other states to get to chincotique count?? then yes.
. Do you have a crush on someone? uhhh, i think we all would relize who the crush would be.
. Do they know? jesus i hope so, or these two years would have been really confusing
. What's his/her name? i'll let you think about that one..... (hint: i wear all his f-ing clothes!! SWINGSETS!)
. What do you think of ouija boards? i have one, they're interesting.
. What book are you reading now? rereading American Gods by NEIL GAIMAN!!
. What's on your mouse pad? it's one of those ones that has a big red ball for moving the cursor, i hate it.
. Favourite magazine? i think Debby's People magazines and such are funny to read when i'm bored.
. Worst feeling in the world? broken heart feeling.
. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? about what i forgot to do the night beofre.
. How many rings before you answer? 2 at my mothers so i can check the id.
. Future daughter's name? i don't know, not that i'm planning to have kids.
. Future son's name? same as above.
. Chocolate or vanilla? both mixed together.
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? only Glowbunny, i always keep her with my at my fahter's.
. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? interior design, or teaching drama, don't know why.
. Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? lefty
. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? mostly, except for the "Y" key, i use my left hand for that one.
. What's under your bed? Aold books, mostly about ghosts.
. Favourite sport to watch? ......
. Your Hair Colour: blonde.
. Eye Colour: Green.
. Height Currently: 5' 7" i think......
. Glasses/contacts: nope, but i do ahve a pair of purple glitter contacts.
. Current Age: 16
. Siblings: three half brothers; Connor(4), Fletcher(3), and Spencer(1)..... and then there's Will who lives in Germany(?) i think, but i'm not allowed to count him.
. Location: Virginia.
. College Plans: grrrr......
. Any Piercings: one in each ear.
. Best Friends: i have lots of friends, no one is better then the other.
. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: drew
. Hobbies: decorating, acting, watching movies
. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: my red jeep, poor baby.
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: either it's really early or late, hardly ever right on time.
. Do You Like Being Around People: yes, but sometimes it's good to get away from everyone.
STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yes
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person you always go after: i don't think so.... but it seems like a lot of musicians.
. Do You Have A Job: no, i need one
. Are You Lonely Right Now: no, i like it by myself.
. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: naw, i'm sure that i will at some point.
. Do You Want To Get Married: sure, if it's with the right person.
. Do You Want Kids: at the moment, no
FAVORITE
. Room In house: my own, the living room
. Type of music: lots of stuff
. Song: nope, i like certain songs for certain moods
. Memory: the swingset memories, my "wings" memories, laying on the hill and seeing faeries.
. Day Of The Week: i like saturdays
. Color: the blue-purple-red spectrum
. perfume or colonge: my body sprays
. Flower: roses
. Month: may
. Season: fall
. Location for dates: just hanging out at a house
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
. Cried: yes... in the car this morning. SO STRESSED OUT!
. Bought Something: a soda, wait, two sodas and a candy of some sort. oh, and gas. Gotten Sick: yes... yesterday was really bad, sorry Emily.
. Sang: yes, to Jeff Buckley in my car..... and bad parts of gypsy
. Said I Love You: yes
. Met Someone New: not really
. Moved On: from being stressed, i'm trying.
. Talked To Someone: yes
. Had A Serious Talk: yes
. Missed Someone: ya, friends that aren't with me right now
. Hugged Someone: yes..... (drew in boxers in the dressing room.... god those boys)
. Kissed Someone: yes
. Fought With Your Parents: yes
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: a friend, yes
. Had a lot of sleep: no, not at all
. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: hehe, yes.