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so Im continuing from last time I updated. I had a dream where I was pregant and I didnt know who knocked me up. but my friends were bored so we all decided to smoke. I was freakin out cuz I was prego and they were like its not a big deal your cousin did it while she was pregnant and her daughter turned out fine. so they passed it to me and I was spacing off and apparently my sleeve caught on fire a little. the guy next to me put it out cuz I didnt even notice. so I took my hit and immediately everyone was like you cant have anymore cuz your pregnant. Next dream. so I had a dream where I was going to visit mindi and I was outside her house. I could see her sitting on her couch through the picture window and she leaned over and got something off the coffee table. it was a chew can. I walked in and asked her when she started chewing. she told me forever ago. then all the sudden she was a scuba diver and she was recovering this train wreck. I was swimming in the water and she was walking on the train tracks. I asked her what it tasted like and she said fish. gross! Next. so lately Ive really been trying to get over mindi. its really fuckin hard tho. sara got mad at me the other night cuz I was texting mindi and not talking to her. yes Im a little obsessed and I hate it. I went to a movie (sweeny todd) it was a good movie. but Ive never been to a movie with her just hung at her house. it was cool. so on the way back to her house to drop her off things kinda got akward. I dont know I just got so down. it hurt so bad. Im helplessly in love with a girl that doesnt love me back. it totally sucks! last night I cried when I was driving home. it hurts so bad. I dont know how to make it stop. why is it so hard for me to find a person that likes me back and that likes girls too. fuck my life...