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i am not coping.
i need some time off. i am just losing the plot. i have lost motivation for everything and even getting out of bed is a struggle at the moment. I am sad, stressed, exausted, and day-dreaming about killing myself again. i need some time off. i cant do it anymore.
I want to go to uni and study art. i want to spend my days painting and drawing and creating. i want to work part time in a cafe so that i can pay my rent. i dont care if i dont get to buy everything i want, or dont go out clubbing every weekend...i just want to be happy and here i am not happy.
*sigh*
i need some time off. i am just losing the plot. i have lost motivation for everything and even getting out of bed is a struggle at the moment. I am sad, stressed, exausted, and day-dreaming about killing myself again. i need some time off. i cant do it anymore.
I want to go to uni and study art. i want to spend my days painting and drawing and creating. i want to work part time in a cafe so that i can pay my rent. i dont care if i dont get to buy everything i want, or dont go out clubbing every weekend...i just want to be happy and here i am not happy.
*sigh*