My weekend!!! :)
On the weekend, i went to Melbourne to see Anthony Callea in concert. To be honest, i can hardly remember him singing. He was amazing, believe me - i was just having more fun during the concert, before the concert, and after the concert -lol!-
It started on saturday afternoon when i was meant to meet up with some of the members of his official forum. Yes, thats right - im a member of his official forum. Feel free to tease - im proud to be a forum member!! Anyway, i got there and i met up with 2 younger girls and their mum, who were very very sweet i might add, and before long all the other members turned up and we were off to the pizzaria for dinner and to get to know each other.
As you all know, ive been anorexic for a few years now, so eating out can be quite a feat for me. Theres the stress of what to eat, how much fat its got, how many calories its got, all the carbs...have i been good during the week..etc...so i sat down and looked at the menu and thought "holy fuck how the hell am i gonna get through this?"
the evil side of my brain was trying to control me again, but i silenced her for the first time in months!!!! I ended up going halvies in a LARGE cappricosa pizza ((with bacon, olives, anchovies, cheese, mushroom, tomato...etc)) with one of the other girls and i ATE HALF OF THE FUCKING PIZZA. Yes, thats right! After 2 or more years of not letting pizza pass through my lips, i actually ATE half a large pizza!!! i was so fucking proud of myself that i could have cartwheeled around the restaurant. Ana had been killed for the night.
Anyways i was sitting there talking to a girl called Melody. We seemed to click straight away and spent ages chatting about this guy who was sitting near us who we both thought was hot and who we both wanted to crack onto. But we didnt know if he was gay lol!! We were trying to suss it out...watching the way he sat, the way he talked, ate, looked...it was driving us insane!! i even told melody to flash her clevage at him and see if he'd look, and she did, and he looked over and had a quick look down her top then looked at me and looked away. In the end i just grabbed Melody and said "look, we'll go get a photo with him and we'll see how he reacts." and so we did lol!!! i actually walked right up to him and asked for a photo and he willingly agreed and snuggled the both of us on his sides and took a photo. it was great fun lol!! we still didnt know if he was gay or not though, but oh well :P id say he was cos he was seeing Anthony Callea and he had an Anthony tag around his neck. d'oh.
Anyway, after id taken more photos with random people ((i dont know what was wrong with me that night lol!)) me and melody and another lady walked over to maccas to get some water for the concert. I was standing there and i thought "i wouldnt mind a maccas icecream..." and without even thinking twice, i got a maccas icecream!!! so id eaten half a large pizza, and a maccas icecream so far without even so muh as a HINT of stress!!
Well as you can imagine i was feeling very proud of myself by this stage and i went into the concert with all this confidence that i didnt even know i had. I found Larelle when i was waiting in the foyer and she almost bowled me over cos she was so gorgeous!!! like, her photos were beautiful, but in the flesh this girl is absolutely stunning. We were sitting in our seats eventually, and we started hacking into two bags of lollies - malteasers and jaffas ((i ate half the bags of each - what a pig i am!)) and all of a sudden someones gone "its molly meldrum!" and ive turned around and sure enough theres ol' Molly up the back of the theatre! So i grabbed Lazz and her cousin and we made our way to the back of the theatre and i jumped the que and walked right up to molly and gone "Hey Molly!! how r ya??" and hes like "Im great thanks how r u?" and im like "Can i have a photo with u please??" and so hes put his arm around me and i had a photo with Molly Meldrum!! YAY!
So anyhoo, we went down to our seats and we spotted Matt Callea ((anthonys younger brother - i think hes 19 or something)) down the front, so once again ive grabbed Lazz and Tonya and we scooted down the front and i walked right up to Matt and ive gone "Heey...can we have a photo with you?" and hes grinned and gone "Sorry im not taking any more photos" and ive gone "awww pleeeeeeeease??" and hes gone "aww sorry!! ill come up and find you later on though, i promise!" and im like "okay well, u better!!" and hes chuckled and gone "yah i promise!" so that was okay, i was satisfied and i went back to my seat. The concert started and Lazz and Tonya and i danced and sang and screamed and jumped around and just went completely off our tits with excitment!!! it was so much fucking fun that i forget anthony even being there lol!! He was amazing though, dont get me wrong..he was outstanding!!
So after the concert i went back down the front to see Matt, cos i wasnt leaving without a photo, and ive stood infront of him ((and his girlfriend i might add)) and hes laughed and gone "youre back!" and im like "yes, u promised!" so hes gone "okaaaaay" so i got a photo with the VERY SEXY matthew callea :P
So afterwards i went back to Shevonnes house, cos i was staying there for the night...and i dont know, everything must have caught up with me and i was so overwhelmed that i started to cry. i dont know what the fuck was wrong with me, but i was bawling my eyes out!! i didnt wanna go out, i just wanted to stay at home and exercise. i felt disgusting all of a sudden. Shevonne hugged me and told me how proud she was of the way i ate, and just talked to me until i started feeling better, and in the end i agreed to go out. I started drinking then, and i practically sculled a bottle of skyy vodka premium, and it went straight to my head so i felt happy again -lol- and we all got in the car and went for a drive. By this time it was about 2am and all the clubs etc were apparently all crap, so we ended up at maccas. So in we've gone to get something to eat, and i thought "fuck this, im not gonna be ruled by this stupid anorexia anymore!" so shevonne and i got a chicken teriyaki deli choice roll, and an italian supreme deli choice roll ((which has the same amount of fat as a quarter pounder i might add)) and we split them and had half each! so there i was, after not having let takeaway food pass through my lips for years, in the span of a few hours id eaten half a pizza, a maccas icecream, and a maccas deli choice roll, plus malteasers and jaffas and vodka. i got to bed at about 4am after shevonne and i stayed up talking for awhile.
I got woken up at about 8am and i went and had a shower and went for a quick walk around Brighton ((shevonne lives in amongst all the mansions and stuff)) and then Shev and Nicci and i went out for breakfast in St Kilda. We went to a funky little cafe and i haaad bircher meusli and a fruit platter which was very yummy, then Nicci told us about this icecream shop that sounded good, so we went there straight after breakfast!! ((i cant believe how brave i had been with food!)) What they did was, they scooped out the icecream, flattened it out, then added other shit into it that u wanted ((such as malteasers or flake or freddo's or m&m's etc...)) and then mixed it up and put it in a cup, so i haaaad white chocolate icecream with crushed up flake, and m&m's mini's in it!! YAY!! it was so good!!!
We went shopping at Southland which is HUGE. its like, 3 stories tall, FULL TO THE BRIM of every shop u could possibly imagine and it stretches across the road even!!! So we stayed there for 3 hours and had lunch, which for me was 2 big sushi rolls and a Gloria Jeans Chocolate and Macadamia latte thing :D
I didnt wanna come home lol!!
so that was my weekend - i know it sounds boring and crap, but i really had the best time of my whole life! i was ACTUALLY HAPPY. not artificially happy - ACTUALLY happy. i didnt even need my medication!!!! it felt so good...id forgotten what real happiness felt like and now ive actually felt it again and its just the beginning of my new found freedom.
yesterday i even ate an apple and custard tart thing and a piece of baked cheesecake, just because les bought it for me and cos i felt like it.
how strong and brave am i??? :D