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[tatsy]

i feel a flake out coming on. i hate that shit.

i was just with you like half an hour ago and i already miss you...

can you really tell how bad i hurt inside just by looking at me? looking into my eyes? or just into my face? or is it just looking at me as a whole? Honestly...
i want to know.... and i want everyone who reads this to answer that... everyone....
and i don't want just yes or no shit.. i want descriptive answers because i really do want to know. Especially from those of you who have known me for a long time....

i meant to go visit my dad yesterday but i wasn't able to and i wanted to go today but didn't... i feel like shit about it. I should have gone. I had the time to go, but i didn't. I just plain didn't. I opted to stay home instead and i think thats horrible. Doing that makes me hurt in a different way, a new way that i'm not used to. I don't quite know how to comprehend it. I miss my dad, i just want a hug from him and to hear him say "i love you" to me again.
wait wait... here comes the flake out... i think...