In a nutshell

[tatica36]

Alot has happened in the past few weeks
I've felt empty and whole at the same time so many times
I still haven't figured out exactly how I feel about all this
I think its for the best in the long run
I miss them
So many plans
Struggling but I have come to realize that I have alot of people there that I didnt know were there for me or that I was always told they would never be.
I am worried
about school work money car
I feel like I am going to grow up alot in the next few months
but also I think I will enjoy myself at the same time
Haven't talked to anyone from home, no ones called.
I try not to think about it
if not i begin to get a bit emotional
I am getting better though

I am worried...

I had a talk the other day
Where is this going?
What do I want from you?
I said I don't know
but I do know
I am just so scared
I always am
I know your not going to give me what I want
Why would you give it to me now after all this time?
I shouldn't have said anything.
I am so scared I am going to end up with nothing.
Maybe it would be best if I have nothing
Like you said we have just been doing this for such a long time
that its hard

Lets see how the rest of this year turns out.