May 14, 2005 14:19
YA!
Lo Juro!
Esta fue la ultima vez!
Me puede temtar todo lo que quiera.
Pero I'm not going to do it.
I have to start loving myself before him.
I'm going back to my old old ways.
Ya no mas.
I knew it I could see it in your eyes.
I don't understand.
It was like a battle you had going on within yourself.
If I tried.
you'd pull back.
I stopped.
You tried.
I pulled back.
You get upset.
Is that not what you wanted?
No te entiendo.
Siempre es lo mismo.
Ya dejame.
Sueltame.
Hurt me one last time.
Just let me go
and
Don't come back.
Please
Its so hard
To even try to be with someone else
All I think about is you.
Can't believe your so far inside me.
This crazy.
Can't believe I spend these countless hours thinking about you.
I've spent 12789600 hours thinking of you.
Literally.
Thats 4 years.
After all this time.
I am still waiting.
Hoping..
That ONE day you'll see me.
I just love to see you smile.
Its so beautiful.
The way I feel inside when I see you smile
Is an undescribable feeling of happiness
Your like a cancer.
Slowly killing me inside.
I look ok some days.
but other days
you can see I'm dying.
Then I think you've gone away
but somehow you appear inside me
AGAIN
Trying to finish me off.
I had given up.
I was going to just let you kill me.
I'm half dead any way.
but
I'm going to fight.
I'm fighting for me.
Myself.