Hmmmm
Its weird that I can talk to Val about weddings with no problems, but the minute someone actually connects me with whatever guy I'm currently around and talks about marriage I spaz out. What is wrong with me every girl is supposed to talk about marriage and think that way about their boyfriend or whatever but I freak out and wonder why I have to think further than the end of the week.
Sometimes its because I think I'll be like the rest of my family, and just give up every dream I have for myself for a guy that may or may not be "The One". I try and convince myself that any guy that actually loved me would not let me give up everything but when it comes down to it I just freak out and inevitably end up ruining things as always.
I think I set myself up for failure in relationships because I'm nervous of that "where is this going" stage.
Val and I are always planning weddings so why can't I actually stay with a guy long enough to consider marrying him? That's weird isn't it, that I want to get married, and can think of every detail about a wedding but hyperventilate when others talk about it. God I'm gonna be like Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride.
Sometimes its because I think I'll be like the rest of my family, and just give up every dream I have for myself for a guy that may or may not be "The One". I try and convince myself that any guy that actually loved me would not let me give up everything but when it comes down to it I just freak out and inevitably end up ruining things as always.
I think I set myself up for failure in relationships because I'm nervous of that "where is this going" stage.
Val and I are always planning weddings so why can't I actually stay with a guy long enough to consider marrying him? That's weird isn't it, that I want to get married, and can think of every detail about a wedding but hyperventilate when others talk about it. God I'm gonna be like Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride.