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It finally hit me. I've lived here since October i only talk to my friends once every few weeks with the exception of Erin. I've kinda been feeling this way for a few weeks now but i haven't really let it affect me as much as it did suddenly. I was all excited about Beck and i wanted to share it with someone. Usually Erin and i watch anime simultaneously if not at his or my house then we will both be watching it episode by episode and calling each other every once in awhile. Then he was talking about playing D&D with Rob and i realized that I will most likely never play D&D again (i know I'm 22 and a father of almost 2) but it seems really really important right now. I haven't talked to rob in months and I guess the way I am I'm not really good at conversations over the net or by phone. I know its sad but to get my full affect we need to be hanging out together for hours on end. I don't think I will ever have a friendship like the ones I had in Winnipeg and as much as I want to demand my friends set aside time to talk to me, Its really not fair to them to demand that they waste time talking to the asshole who moved cross country. I just feel like I'm gonna be a computer hermit for the rest of my life. Now I'm gonna play Wow cause i don't really do anything else anymore.