Found again
People laugh at me when I say I hate easter time. But I do. I hate easter because something always goes wrong this time of year. Always. And until today I thought, hey, it's over, we made it through and nothing happened. Which is great because for the last few days I've had this feeling that something big was going to happen, and it did. Well, big to me.
It seems silly that a letter would be such a big, bad thing, but it is.
I got a letter int he mail this morning. It was ferndale, had a return address but no name frot he return address. I thought it was from my Dad, pete thought it was from my Dad becasue he is the only one that lives there. Or so we thought. Open it up and it's a couple pieces of paper, which is odd my dad calls, he doesn't write unless he's sending me smething.
It was from my mom and it was..not awful. I will admit there is a small part of me that wants to believe that she wants to talk and be nice but she's played this trick too often. Offer the olive branch and then use it to beat me.
Looking at that letter was like being snow white and staring at the poison apple.
I am not that stupid, but I am upset. She isn't supposed to know where I live. I'm hoping she just had the address from the last time she sent me something, like three years ago but I'm afraid that someone gave it to her. And that leaves only two people. My dad and my brother, and it's a painful betrayl no matter who did it.
Why can't that woman just leave me alone?
You call and wake me up, the way you always do
Say you miss me and youre sorry, deja vu
You push the button in the heart you know so well
The wall starts coming down then I remind myself
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
If only promises could just erase the past
I could open up my heart enough to take you back
But weve been down that road
Time and time again
Ive learned the hard way how the story always ends
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
It seems silly that a letter would be such a big, bad thing, but it is.
I got a letter int he mail this morning. It was ferndale, had a return address but no name frot he return address. I thought it was from my Dad, pete thought it was from my Dad becasue he is the only one that lives there. Or so we thought. Open it up and it's a couple pieces of paper, which is odd my dad calls, he doesn't write unless he's sending me smething.
It was from my mom and it was..not awful. I will admit there is a small part of me that wants to believe that she wants to talk and be nice but she's played this trick too often. Offer the olive branch and then use it to beat me.
Looking at that letter was like being snow white and staring at the poison apple.
I am not that stupid, but I am upset. She isn't supposed to know where I live. I'm hoping she just had the address from the last time she sent me something, like three years ago but I'm afraid that someone gave it to her. And that leaves only two people. My dad and my brother, and it's a painful betrayl no matter who did it.
Why can't that woman just leave me alone?
You call and wake me up, the way you always do
Say you miss me and youre sorry, deja vu
You push the button in the heart you know so well
The wall starts coming down then I remind myself
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
If only promises could just erase the past
I could open up my heart enough to take you back
But weve been down that road
Time and time again
Ive learned the hard way how the story always ends
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that theres a way to work it out
Everytime you say lets try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry