When is Enough going to be Enough??????
Does God just not understand? Does he not get it? My family has been through ENOUGH we can't HANDLE anymore!!!!!Why does he continuously pick on us? Why not another family, another house, some place far away from us!!!!! It was already tense around the house anyways but NO NO NO that ISN'T ENOUGH....there has to be more. How many damn wreck phone calls am I going to have to answer? All the memories, more like nightmares flooding back, the fear, the anxiety. GOD WHY? WHEN IS IT GOING TO END? I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!!
So my brother, Chad, was in a car wreck. Yes that's right a god damn car accident. Is there not a limit? You know maybe one per household? So of course who picks up the phone? Once again I do for the 2nd time in less than 5 fucking years. Mike is on the other end talking 90 miles an hour, I can't understand a word he's saying and the only things I make out is "woods, crashed, cars totalled." So I try to stay calm and say "Mike...mike..MIKE!!!" he goes silent "Is my brother okay?" "Yeh yeh he barely has a scratch on him, he hit his head on the steering wheel but he's okay" I'm thinking in my mind "HELLO? internal injuries! punctured lung,broken ribs...etc." anyways he goes "wha..what should I do" "Call back on my regular phone and you can talk to my mom." and that was the end of the conversation.
Then I call my work to make sure they know and they automatically ask me if I can work his shift! Hello I'm his freakin' sister if he ends up being hurt I'm going to be at the hospital all damn night! So I say "No, I have encore" "Well what time is encore" "5:30..." "5:30 to what?" "10" "oh nevermind then your brother is suppose to call us back" HOnestly how in considerate can people be? Exspecially them knowing about Kyle and his accident. Now..now I have to put on an all too cheery happy smiley face and fake being in an okay mood at Encore practice. I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1